i love you more than words could possibly express. and holding you tonight, i almost fell asleep in your arms. i'm trying to put all this behind me, but when things happen- accidental or not- it's still there. please don't get so upset when i get worried. i say things when i start to get scared and i dont' mean them. (i.e.- why don't you give me my ( Read more... )

i had all intentions of updating this last night, but my computer is being fucking retarded.

go ahead and change your passwords, give me another reason to assume you hide things.

you wanted this??? well, bitch, ya got it.

it's been a hell of a long time since i wrote in here. going though this thing makes me almost as sad as going though my open diary. which is still not been deleated. wow.

so much has happebned,. but i have no time to write. like anyone else does anymore

i think it's time i started using th is journal again. i remember when i'd change back between livejournal and my open diary. now, my open diary is probably deleated b/c i haven't even went to it in at least 6 months... and so i will no go between different livejournals. i like livejournal more anyways. i've been t hinking a lot lately. about a ( Read more... )

it has been so long since i slept that long, that i almost feel lost. waking up at 4 in the afternoon. having very little priorities for a day. it's been so long since i was able to just sit around and watch tv and look at the computer monitor... i've been looking for something.. anything.. to just feel right. not new, not exciting... just a piece ( Read more... )

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it's been so long since i've actually sat down to enjoy the wide world of internet. it's just that i'm always so damn busy. or either have no access. or very little access. im always either at work, with jennifer, with jennifer at work, partying with friends, or being hung over. hrm. the past couple of months have gone by so fast that thinking ( Read more... )

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.i.don't.know.what.to.say.