dear love~

[magicmunchkin]

i love you more than words could possibly express. and holding you tonight, i almost fell asleep in your arms. i'm trying to put all this behind me, but when things happen- accidental or not- it's still there. please don't get so upset when i get worried. i say things when i start to get scared and i dont' mean them. (i.e.- why don't you give me my shit back and i'll leave) that's when you need to take a step back and realize i'm not meaning to be hurtful. reassurance is always nice. comrfort me..... i'm just trying to explain how to handle me to you. you are my heartbeat. and i think you are abso-fucking-lutely beautiful. my body misses your soft skin and the comfort i find in it, already. we'll get our own place soon enough. time,patience, and sacrifice will only lead to a more comfortable life for us. if we can put back now- go without all the little things we want and only spend on what we need- and if we're patient in doing so- we'll have the house we want- the cars we want- and the life we want. rome wasn't built in a day- and i've got strong determination. but i also want to make sure you get everything you want when you want it. and that is my downfall. i need your help with this.s you know i can't say no to you. about anything. help me and i'll help you and we'll help each other- like lovers do. once i'm safe with you- truely safe- you'll see a different side of me. a side you've only seen bits and pieces of. the passion of your kisses are a first sign that this is on the way. there are millions of brilliant colors in a life- and i want to share every shade with you. i want you. and i need you. and when you're away things feel weird. off. something is always missing.

there was something different about you tonight that i just couldn't put my finger on. and whatever that something was- made me love you even more. there was something beautiful about the way you spoke my name and kissed my lips. your body language just pulled me in like a force of gravity unseen on this world. i didn't want to leave. i hope you know that. i miss your face looking back at me. but soon enough, we shall no longer have to miss a single breathe. i love you.