i said i was going to delete this damn journal but that didnt happen. i have been shopping for my apt. i dont even have it yet but it makes me happy to buy for it, i have to wait for some people to move their slow lazy asses first. i have almost everything, i need a dresser, and i can get one for $40 at Hobo's, so thats pretty much set. i ( Read more... )

One night, a nursing coworker was taking an aborted Down's Syndrome baby who was born alive to our Soiled Utility Room because his parents did not want to hold him, and she did not have time to hold him. I could not bear the thought of this suffering child dying alone in a Soiled Utility Room, so I cradled and rocked him for the 45 minutes that he ( Read more... )

i am deleting this journal tonight, and we arnt going to be able to talk anymore, i feel like it is the best thing right know, i am going to date gabe, i am sorry, i dont think we should talk for awhile, maybe later when things blow over some, i am very sorry

i have got to get my life back in order

It is unbelievable how unsure i am about everything that is going on. Is it so uncommon to not know what you want? I mean is it so bad that I dont know what i want to do about the guys in my life or school or anything. I want to just so fuck them all, because why am I dealing with any of this if it only makes me feel worse. I have turned into a ( Read more... )

I bought Army of Darkness today for about $5 today, that movie rocks, i also bought the dashboard cd and i am having andrew burn me 'me first and the give me give mes', 'my chemical romance', and something else i dont even remember, i need it, all the music in my car is very lame anymore ( Read more... )

it doesnt help to show up to candles and flowers and chocolate and everything else that i didnt really expect, things just cant be easy for some people, jessica and micheal just fell into each other and they are so completely meant for each other, why do some people get a break and some dont, this may offend people but these are the reasons that ( Read more... )

anyone heard of the mosquitoes?

im gonna watch them play soon

funny stuff happens when you least expect it

i've got to make some changes

i just saw someone pop up with "it takes more than a firetruck to stop drop dead fred", that is one of the all time best movies ever, andrews got it at his house, we watched it forever ago and i want to see it again so if he would ever bring it back to me i could watch it, but i wont mention it to him, lol ( Read more... )