eating right is so hard for me. and by "right" i mean at sane times in sane amounts. food is an immediate pleasure. if it tastes good it feels good.
until later, when i'm left with a worse feeling than before. ARGH.
fucking sucks, is all. And I feel like i have too many *issues* to comfortably let someone else in. Every time I've worked on losing weight with someone else, I felt like I couldn't be honest about how I was feeling and why, and that made it even harder to do than it's been alone.
i've never wanted to admit I had enough of a problem to seek counseling for an eating disorder, but I'm starting to think it's the help I need.
I was kinda surprised I didn't find this triggering. Something about how you write is so insightful, but still so raw and honest. If I may be so sappy: Thank you for sharing your journal with me.
No, thank YOU! Thank u 4 being open, receptive, and honest. I can hardly admit this stuf myself. When I wuz anorectic, I wuz almost proud. Same w drinking. But binge eating embarasses me. I'm not sure why....
Maybe we can talk 2 each other and not have 2 deal w this alone...??!!
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eating right is so hard for me. and by "right" i mean at sane times in sane amounts. food is an immediate pleasure. if it tastes good it feels good.
until later, when i'm left with a worse feeling than before. ARGH.
fucking sucks, is all. And I feel like i have too many *issues* to comfortably let someone else in. Every time I've worked on losing weight with someone else, I felt like I couldn't be honest about how I was feeling and why, and that made it even harder to do than it's been alone.
i've never wanted to admit I had enough of a problem to seek counseling for an eating disorder, but I'm starting to think it's the help I need.
I was kinda surprised I didn't find this triggering. Something about how you write is so insightful, but still so raw and honest. If I may be so sappy: Thank you for sharing your journal with me.
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Maybe we can talk 2 each other and not have 2 deal w this alone...??!!
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