whats the fucking point

Im depressed because I realized I'll never find real love. I'm depressed becasue no one wille ver accept all my little quirks. No one wille ver accept me for me and just fucking love me asgjk.asrqwrehqwergfjkadfh go;dfj omfg i wanna kill myself, as i sit here I jsut feel ike smashgina everything asdghask.ghasrk; grg.

I've felt so alone lately for some reason. It doesn't make any sense. I have friends I have my family, Even my co-workers are here for me damn near everyday. But still I sit here and feel like, no mater how loud I yell i feel like no one hears me. Everyone keeps telling me that i'll move on that if I get out there I'll connect with people, make ( Read more... )

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Blah. Im really lonely and sorta bored. I miss Lindsay ( Read more... )

Wow, its been a long time since i updated this thing... Maybe im just not cut out to be a blogger. Idk, Im just not the kind of person to pour my heart and soul, or tell "intricate" details of my day to day life (which by the way wouldn't be very exciting... i never do anything) in an online journal. Its not like anyone i know... or even anyone i ( Read more... )

I just got back from Canada today and i had a great time. I was so Happy to get to spend an entire week with Lindsay.The first day that we showed up it was really windy so we didnt do much... I Think We spent that night in the cabin watching movies... I know that we didnt get the boat in the water untill sunday. For the most part me and lindsay ( Read more... )

I had such and amazing weekend. Friday was my senior prom. I was so nervous all week but supriseingly I had an amazing time. I didnt really expect to have such a great time, but a certain someone wouldnt let me be miserable like i usually am. We had a really good time, and Lindsay even got me to dance. Not very well i might add, but i tried none ( Read more... )

I had such a wonderful time tonite. I spent the afternoon at Lindsay's house. We watched movies and went for a walk. I didnt really want to leave. Alsoo, as of tonite, well technichaly lastnite, We have been going out for two months. Im so happy. I love you lindsay <333. I cant wait to see you again.

OMFG... yea isnt that a great way to start out an entry. Im really getting sick of the stress. I dont kno what to do anymore. I kno my dad wants me to move to california but ... i dont really want to anymore. I wont have anything out there... The biggest emotional support i will have will be julian... and thats when shes not working or with the ( Read more... )