How long has it been?
How long has it been???
How long since I wrote in this journal: Fucking forever. And I'll probably forget about it again after tonight.
How long were we dating: 3 and 1/2 years I suppose? Roughly?
Things Have changed so much lately. Me and teh spooky lady split up after 3 1/2 years and now Im living with my parents again. We're still talking and i think we'll still be friends for quite some time to come. It's a long complicated story and in short, She just didn't feel the same about me anymore. Guess Im more of a best friend. It's taking me some time to get used to my new role in her life and its also taking time to get used to her being with another man. Well thats the short and sweet of it.
As for me. I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I never realized how much she defined my life and how much I depended on her. I find it very hard to adjust to being alone everyday. On my days off I'm at a complete loss of what to do. What do single adults do? How do I meet other people now that I'm not in school? How should I occupy my free time? So many questions that I just can't answer.
One thing I have been doing is reconnecting with a LOT of old friends and its been really great. Firstly I never realized just how many of my friends were really going to be there for me and a lot of people stepped up that I never realized actually cared about me. Its been really great and helped me out a TON. I've gained on of my best friends of all time back wich is spectacular because she is one of the few people who I feel "gets me" on an emotional level. I also started talking to another one of my ex's again. It's been pretty cool and i feel like she's a great friend.
I've still got soooo much to figure out though and I don't know were to begin. I'm not sure how to even live my life anymore. I think I'll manage
As a side note: My layout is SOOOOOOO unsightly.... : ( I wish I knew how to pretty it up. Some computer science major I am... i don't even know HTML.
How long since I wrote in this journal: Fucking forever. And I'll probably forget about it again after tonight.
How long were we dating: 3 and 1/2 years I suppose? Roughly?
Things Have changed so much lately. Me and teh spooky lady split up after 3 1/2 years and now Im living with my parents again. We're still talking and i think we'll still be friends for quite some time to come. It's a long complicated story and in short, She just didn't feel the same about me anymore. Guess Im more of a best friend. It's taking me some time to get used to my new role in her life and its also taking time to get used to her being with another man. Well thats the short and sweet of it.
As for me. I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I never realized how much she defined my life and how much I depended on her. I find it very hard to adjust to being alone everyday. On my days off I'm at a complete loss of what to do. What do single adults do? How do I meet other people now that I'm not in school? How should I occupy my free time? So many questions that I just can't answer.
One thing I have been doing is reconnecting with a LOT of old friends and its been really great. Firstly I never realized just how many of my friends were really going to be there for me and a lot of people stepped up that I never realized actually cared about me. Its been really great and helped me out a TON. I've gained on of my best friends of all time back wich is spectacular because she is one of the few people who I feel "gets me" on an emotional level. I also started talking to another one of my ex's again. It's been pretty cool and i feel like she's a great friend.
I've still got soooo much to figure out though and I don't know were to begin. I'm not sure how to even live my life anymore. I think I'll manage
As a side note: My layout is SOOOOOOO unsightly.... : ( I wish I knew how to pretty it up. Some computer science major I am... i don't even know HTML.