Last night, as i laid facedown on the pavement drunk off my ass i knew i had reached what is called the lowpoint, because honestly I vaguely remember wishing I would just die there.

i am cut and bruised on my face, arms, hand, knees and ankle :( i am in pain.

"the past is still there" by deborah garrison ( Read more... )

why am i retard? an EMBARASSED retard.

I want to crawl in a black hole and die right now.

or just come home for spring break.

Its 4 am and I cant sleep as usual. My sleep cycle is beyond messed up.

9 DAYS UNTIL SPRING BREAK AHHH. i just cant wait to go home. Because sometimes in a city like Dallas a girl has a way of feeling lost and she just wants to go home and lay in her bed. But Austin has its own problems. Like the fact that I'm very attached to so many special ( Read more... )

So i went home last weekend. It was mostly fun, i miss certain things about austin so much. like my parents and my best friend and my bed and my sister and barton creek and my CAR and my austinites. jeez i miss driving around with nothing to do. But by the second night i realized i missed smu, when my friends started calling me. thats weird. ( Read more... )

I had a perfect Christmas! I got nike air shocks that remind me of spiderman, OC season three, Rock and Republics, Hollister and Vickies perfume, boyshorts, and a purple (my fave color!) coach purse. And my familia liked their presents, which made me happy. We went to go see The Pursuit of Happyness, which is so sad but so good!!

However, I got ( Read more... )

THIS YEAR:

[PEOPLE]
best friend: Rach, Liz, Ruchi, Erica
lost any friends: not really i kept in touch with mostly everyone i wanted to keep in touch with
gained any friends: yes thanks college and work!

[PLACES]
went out of the country: yeah canada
moved: yes to dallasss
new school: southern methodist
been on an airplane: yes def

[YOU]
have you changed: not ( Read more... )

So I started work at hollister yesterday. My job is funny. I get paid to just sort of stand there and open fitting rooms / fold clothes / look nice. I got hired with whitney and janelle though, so that's fun. The other people who work there kind of scare me because theyre so standoffish and bitchy ( Read more... )

so as soon as im happy and finally content in how i want to live my life, why is it that you have some sort of  radar to just come in and fuck all of that up? again! and leave me just as confused, if not more. and what kills me more than anything is that I keep on putting up with it. god sometimes austin is such a reminder of things I just want to

This week has been the most boring week since ive been to smu. Its finals week ugh! i feel like my routine is sleep, study, procrastinate on facebook, study more, sleep again ( Read more... )