ive been waiting for this day to come for the past 3 weeks now. my test results came back negative, wich was a relief for both me and joel. the reason i havent been getting my period is because i have a sist, so it was a relief but at the same time it adds to my list of shit i have to deal with, im tired of all these doctors apointments. but im ( Read more... )

the biggest decision i have ever had to make in my life....to be with him or to be living at home. my dad just doesnt understand...i really love him and im not going to give up on what we have, so i decided to move out...moms being alot of help, she knows how hard all of this is on me, finding an apartment isnt that easy...with the income that me ( Read more... )

i havent had the chance to update in a while but theres so much ive been holding in and its time to let it out. i didnt want to upset myself over this or start any more arguements, we've had enough. i allowed u to lecture me...and i gave u ur space...but i will not put up with u being fake and acting like everytings ok when i know its not. i ( Read more... )

I watched as we got closer and closer to that damn tree, i knew we wernt goin to stop and i knew it was gonna be a hard hit. i saw ur window crack and i dont remimber what happened after that. I thank god were ok and pray it never ever happens again. It was the first car wreck i have ever been in and i never want it to happen again. It was an ( Read more... )

theres so much that i still want to say to u, im just not quite sure how to. im not sure how to put everything into words.... i want you to know that i didnt stop caring and i never stopped loving you. i didnt expect things to end up the way they did, i didnt expect that we would ever loose sight of each other but we did...i never had any ( Read more... )

...its been a week now since me and tj broke up. i was putting my life on hold for way too long. theres so much that i still have to do with my self. i wanna go to school...n im still young and i wanna go out. i hated the restrictions, and feeling that nothing i ever did was good enough, i hated the lack of communication we had and the feeling like ( Read more... )

yea, so can i tell u how much shit has changed in my life these past coupple of months. everything seems to be falling into place and im so caught up in other shit i dont get the time to update my journal anymore and i miss venting. im either workin or spendin time with tj. me and tj did a 360 in our relationship and are now so much closer and ( Read more... )

your so far gone now it definatly feels like were not friends anymore. i cant call u, but then again why should i. i dont know what i would say....u never seemed to care or to call when u found out i was going through all this but somehow ur own boyfriend cared enough to call. thats fuck up. i dont even know what to think of u anymore...

i feel as if i lost a best friend over a fucked up weekend...its as if i was completly erased from ur life in 3 days. i dont have any clue to whats going on, could u please fill me in ( Read more... )

No one knows what it's like ( Read more... )