Phantom Load - Part 9

[lovesrain44]

Friday, January 24th, 1992

Dean made it through the week by avoiding the hallway near the auditorium, by taking the long way around for his geography class, and by keeping his eyes open the whole time. He hardly dared blink. His eyes were as dry as dusty bones, but at least his homework had been handed in, and he wasn’t limping anymore. He still

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[embroiderama]

Oh, man, wow. This is so horribly sad for both Dean and Sam and all the details feel so real that they hurt. Great job, wow.

[lovesrain44]

Hey, thank you! I did put both boys through the wringer and I'm glad you enjoyed the results.

[amothea]

I'm so glad your story is finally posted and I don't think it hurts to express how much I loved the character voices, the imagery, the plot. This broke my heart more than once but I couldn't stop reading and Sam was perfect. This is one of the best stories I've read in a long time.

p.s. I also I loved your A/N I know I shouldn't have laughed but I kept thinking you were talking about me! Even though I knew you came up with this story all on your own!

[lovesrain44]

I so love compliments like the fact that this story broke your heart - but then you know that. :::smooch::: Thank you!

As for the A/N, yeah, the way I figure it, I don't think there's anyone who's not carrying around something that they find hard or almost impossible to deal with. Some memory of an event that changed them forever. So yeah, I'm talking about you and me and everyone else. The trick is not to let it stop you. Never let the bastards get you down!

[gmys]

That was truly heartbreaking..*cries* The poor boys.. I kept hoping that John would figure it out... so we could see him tear the guy apart even though you know he never knew, I was just so caught up in it all. Everything just seemed to fit the boys I could see this all play out. I was trapped in that nightmare with Dean.. at times I had to read quickly because my stomach hurt for Dean and it was just a bit brutal for me.

Little Sam was freaking adorable. I loved how he automaticaly took the role of older brother during Dean's nightmares even if Dean didn't admit to it. I loved how he got his mitten back.. I loved the pudding fight.. Most of all I LOVED how he helped Dean get away from the town. Older Sam's reaction to everything and Dean going from broken to comforting big brother just killed me. You did a wonderful job with this story. Thank you for sharing it!

[lovesrain44]

My stomach hurt too, when I was writing this. No lie. I would be on the phone with Amothea and say, I can't write this anymore, it's too hard. Course I couldn't tell her why, because I wanted her to read the story of a peice. But yeah, brutal pretty much sums it up.

As for Sam, he was a delight to work with and the only spot of normal for miles. I enjoyed making him spunky and happy - because this was certainly before he had to start any serious hunter training.

Thank you for your lovely comments - I'm so glad you enjoyed the story! (P.S. Pudding fight was taken from real life. My parents never DID understand how that pudding got on the ceiling!)

[lilacsigil]

I'm so glad that you wrote such a strong connection between Sam and Dean (in both storylines, by the end) because without that, it would have been unbearable. Wee!Dean is so brave that he harms himself (and Gunnarson saw that in a second, predator that he was) and I was really glad to see that Dean could trust and respect the new principal to act, not cover up and bluster. I love stories where Sam steps up to share responsibility, even as Dean tries to hold all the responsibility himself, and I really loved this.

And the image of Gunnarson methodically searching the school for his files, locker after locker, room after room, is just terrifying. It's a cold day today, but this gave me chills that the heater couldn't counter.

[lovesrain44]

Of course, I couldn't leave it ALL bleak, but then, taking the time to have Dean recover from the abuse wasn't what the story was about either. So I settled for the boys connecting when they were Wee, and then connecting when they were older. Thank you for noticing that connection!

As for Gunnarson, he gave me the creeps, not someone I'd ever want to know in real life, but you know, it's kinda cool that he scared you too! That's a huge compliment. : D

[gilesgirl]

This was truly awesome & just....wow.

*hugs*

[lovesrain44]

Hugs for Dean, too right? And Sammy? : D

I'm glad you liked the story, thank you!

[gilesgirl]

Hugs for EVERYONE, yes! :)