Wow..  it's been ages, but I've finally returned. Life has been crazy out there. I thought I'd never make it home.. yet, here I am. Sober and alive. I've survived. There have been many souls lost along the way and my grief runs deep.. but the torment and the pain.. I've learned how to transform past hurts into fuel. More later.

I keep returning to the things I onced loved.. some of the places.. and very few of the people ( Read more... )

I feel like a little kid.. I totally have a schoolgirl crush on this fellow I met at Annabell's up in Akron last summer.. He's got tattoos - which is always appreciated.. I have always liked "alternative" fellows.. and he's got the most whitty/sarcastic/ridiculous sense of humor.. I love it when someone can take my shit and dish it right back..  It ( Read more... )

Listening to Saturday night by the misfits .. bittersweet memories thinking of my little Helly.. Ohh and Come Home by Onerepublic.. So many feelings, thoughts, and memories to deal with ( Read more... )

There is a war going on between you
There is a war being waged among us
There is a war burning on inside me

This is constant chaos

And I am so angry that you are gone, gone so young, gone too soon, gone from our lives..
You are gone
And I am still here waiting

"I don't know what day it is I had to check the paper I don't know the city But it isn't home But you say I'm lucky To love something that loves me But I'm torn as I could be Wherever I roam.. Take all the time lost All the days that I cost Take what I took And give it back to you.."


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I went on two dates with this guy.. two very casual dates and now he pulls out this shit in our conversation..  What the fuck.. I mean really??? really?

X (11:58:32 AM): Ohh and im big on getin and giving oral...lol

LoveisLaced (11:59:38 AM): heh i think most guys are

X (12:00:35 PM): Gettin yes they usually give cuz its expected.

X (12:01:00 PM): ( Read more... )

The pusher man told me the other day.. more things I did not care to hear.  These people talk and I seldom listen.. they talk at me and I talk at them.  We seldom converse .. but this time words broke barriers.  I asked him what became of his buddy Josh.. I'd always see him over at his place.. hanging out or cleaning .. doing dishes.. always ( Read more... )

I think I need to update this more ( Read more... )

"I was born by the river in a little tent
Oh and just like the river I've been running ever since
It's been a long, a long time coming
But I know a change gonna come, oh yes it will

It's been too hard living but I'm afraid to die
Cause I don't know what's up there beyond the sky
It's been a long, a long time coming
But I know a change gonna come ( Read more... )