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No pic at the moment... but you wish you could see... what I used to be.
I have been down to 97. The lowest I've ever been. Without stress either, because it was all caused by drug use. And now me and my man have given it up for good and I am a bit afraid that my 130+ will come screaming back. So I, of course, have to make a new stupid commitment to health and exercise. We've been eating McDonalds and Del Taco like ( Read more... ) -
Horrible day...
I have never felt suicidal before... but today I feel it in a bad way. I want so badly to die... because I feel like every second right now is just worthless. There is no point, no meaning, no desire... -
What a way to live...
The shit has taken over, just a bit. Who needs sleep anyway? Life is far too short to spend 8 hours a day sleeping, you know? I've come dangerously close to 100lbs recently too... with each weekend binge leaving me about 5lbs lighter... and I usually gain back 2-3 during the week. I haven't weighed myself in days and days but I am going to ( Read more... ) -
yay
Inspiration = rings falling off my fingers. -
Today
114.0lbs
22.3%bf -
Meh...
Not the worst day ever... not the best either. Yesterday was freaking stellar, except for the fact that I went over to my friend's house for dinner and we had salad, lasagna, brownies, and wine. Hahaha. It was fun though. And today I've had boston baked beans... you know those red candy ones? Yeah. At least half a cup of them. The good news ( Read more... ) -
Distraction is a blessing
Things I've been meaning to do ( Read more... ) -
I'm having a pretty good day.
For the past couple of days I've been trying to stay away from the junk food ... but I haven't been counting calories at all because my binge behavior needs to get worked out right now before anything else ( Read more... )