Still nothing good...

[lostlollipop]

I have just had a major strip torn off of me by saura_ for not posting at all and apparently worrying everyone about where I've gone. During our talk together at Ring*Con I mentioned to her that I felt no one would be really keen on hearing me bitch and moan about my life when things aren't going well, but she insisted that they do want to know. So, here

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[lireeli]

Oh...I can just hug you tight and wish you the best!
Don't give up the fight!!

[aquila0212]

Glad you're safe and sound, luv. And speaking as someone who has bounced around from job to job quite a bit over the last ten years or so, it can be very demoralizing. But onward and upward -- you'll find something great that you love doing, I'nm sure! Looking forward to more Enchantment.

[facecat]

I wish I could offer more than hugs & best wishes. I wish you peace of mind at the very least.

And yes - Enchantment is very well remembered - looking forward to your next offerings.

Take care.

[samena]

I know how annoying it can be when people go: 'I have that too!' But I really think I know how you're feeling. I've been in therapy on and off basically my whole life, and nobody's ever specifically mentioned AvPD, but I have a deeply ingrained insecurity, combined with an overwhelming fear of failure and wanting to do everything perfectly, because making mistakes is just about the worst thing imaginable, so I guess it's sort of similar. As soon as someone corrected me on something, no matter how little, I was sure I'd failed already. Only recently have I started to discover that constructive criticism can really help me, and I do have the ability to actually learn from my mistakes, instead of feeling dpressed by them, and improve myself. But it's taken me quite a long time, and I'm still battling the insecurity and shyness

[fishbaum]

Just gotta say {{{{hugs}}}} and please know that there are people out here who do look forward to the things you do, and who do think you're a perfect three-dimensional person. :) And yes, please do try the psych route -- there may well be things you can try (meds or exercises) that will help you feel more like you can handle things. But getting diagnosed is a huge step, so a big part of that is now out of the way for you.

A friend of mine (who is also a therapist) encouraged me to walk 20 minutes 3 times a week, and to use that time to think of things I'm grateful for. Not rote stuff like "I'm glad I live in America" but more like "I'm glad I got the trash together and out" or "I'm glad the kid at the grocery store smiled and waved at me". Keeping a list of positive things close at hand can really help bouy me when I get so stressed that all I can think is negatives.

And then again, there is the bit where you don't know me from Adam, but... good luck with it nonetheless. :)