wow its crazy how in like no time at all you can go from being hella happy to just feeling like shit... im trying to change i really am its just so hard... i gotta stop hurting myself n stop hurting others... i know what i hav to do but in order to do that i gotta stop being so fuking selfish n start caring bout other people... it sucks doing this ( Read more... )

last night was so nice... i loved cing everyone again i missed adam so much and it was great spending time with my friends... definitely gotta do that more often... also i now hav a date to winter ball!!! im so excited cuz i get 2 go with my bestest friend terin :D this is gonna be awesome total lesbian action lol... well ya im hella ( Read more... )

i hope im not getting sick... i feel so drained... maybe its just stess... umm volleyball thing was aight i no most of the ppl on the team i hope theyre good i hav so much pressure 2 make varsity next year n i wanna play so bad like u cant even imagine... arite well im out

ahh this was a long week... i shouldnt be complaining cuz i was off for 9 days before this week but ya... hella hw n tests n projects that i really didnt wanna do but oh well... i got 2 c tommy on wednesday n i finally went 2 one of chris's hockey games which was cool... im excited for this weekend... adams home!!!! :D tomorrow i hav a volleyball ( Read more... )

ok so today i didnt do 2 much... church, project, blah blah blah, nothing 2 exciting... i did get 2 see buddy n steven tho which was nice even tho it was only for like 30 seconds but whatever... umm ya then i just talked to people n morgan told me that i should wear this dress 2 winter ball (which i really dont even know if im going 2 or not) or ( Read more... )

im home!!! :) so lets see what's been going on lately... um friday was the mixer (definitely not good i'll just say) then saturday steven wanted 2 come over so ya he came down here n we watched mean girls lol then i had this church thing... sunday i got up hella early n drove up 2 sf 4 my flight... stupid us air ran outa food so we didnt eat for ( Read more... )

i never no what 2 write in this thing... i always end up contradicting myself anyways like i was gonna say how someone pisses me off so much cuz all they do is complain n whine about how much life sucks n its just like ahhh shut up but then i thought bout it n was like wow thats probably how everyone who reads this feels bout me but anyways this ( Read more... )

tonight was pretty interesting... first i found out that the stuff i had going on with my friend was just a misunderstand n i was jsut being paranoid or something... then i had a long talk with tommy which was actually nice n very helpful n interesting... i learned alota stuff about myself... even tho i kinda got yelled at i really appreciated cuz ( Read more... )

its weird when u try n talk to someone n they say something but then do the exact opposite... i dont understand what i did n whats goin on... its really starting to piss me off... i really dont no what to do... i wish i knew what was going on n what they're thinking... i dont even no if its worth trying to fix or not... oh well

well yesterday was pretty interesting... started off the day pretty much doing nothing then i was supposed to go to a football game but then i found out that i had volleyball tryouts so instead i had to rush off to that... i made the team but even though i made it i was still really upset because i cant play for the team that i wanted to play 4 n ( Read more... )