wow i dont even no what to think right now... someone who i thought was one of my so called "closest friends" has apparently just been like... ahhh i dont even no... this whole friendship has been based on a lie n it makes me so sad because theyre one of the only people ive really been able to trust and confide in n talk to... they were one of the ( Read more... )

Hey, I wanna crawl out of my skin ( Read more... )

fuck this shit... im done...

smiled today for the 1st time in a couple days... also we won our game against ICA (no surprise there) n i actually played really good... my coaches told me to tryout for their team so thats cool... im still really sad about this weekend :( i wish there was something i could do... im sorry for scaring ppl with my sadness i dont deal with ( Read more... )

i dont know what to do at all... thats really all i hav to say... i know everything happens for a reason it just seems so unfair... until later :(

i dont even no what to say... the mood pretty much speaks for itself... i just fucked up the one thing in my life that makes me truely happy n it sucks so much...

BRANDON GOT INTO STANFORD!!! hehe go cardinals! (just felt like writing that)

there are so many things that i am trying to change about myself n in my life right now but its for the best n things seem to finally be looking up... for once i can actually say that i think someday i'll be okay... :)

im sad right now n i dont quite know why... its this like really calm numb sad feeling n ya i just feel really alone... i dont no what i want at all... its like i want to be with someone but whenever im in a relationship i never seem 2 be happy... i dont no what to do guess its one of those "u gotta love urself before u can love anyone else" sorta ( Read more... )

lets see whats been happening um friday i went 2 the bellarmine football game with morgan n lizzy n chris which was fun except i was sad that brandon didn't come i still want my cd... o well then chris took me home n we got a lil lost (oops) then today i was so tired... i had 2 wake up at 6 to go and ref at this volleyball tournement ALL DAY so ya ( Read more... )