i don't know how i feel anymore. i've been with karl for nine months now, and instead of us getting closer, i feel like we're drifting apart. he blames the distance or the lack of time we have to spend together. i don't know whether i blame myself or him. i blame myself, because i made the one person who really loved me unconditionally turn ( Read more... )

i finally finished my christmas shopping tonight, thank goodness. i got all of my close friends done in three hours or less. i was a little pressed for cash this year, but i hope they'll be happy. i shopped for karl, mom, dad, grandma, the grandfather from puerto rico who's coming into town tomorrow for christmas, laurie, and brad. i'm thinking ( Read more... )

so karl left for the big apple today. i got to hang out with him last night before he left, which was good. he called me as he was boarding, then again when he landed, and then again about an hour ago. he misses me, as i miss him, and one of the sweetest things he's ever said to me he said today. he said that he wished i could have gone with ( Read more... )

went to work at 6:30 this morning, after staying up until almost two AM the night prior, in which i hung out with karl for the whole day. it was a fun day, getting to lay around and talk, and think, and embrace nature, embrace our love, everything. his father had had a problem yesterday with his stomach (thinking it was most likely due to food ( Read more... )

today was a pretty blah day. just hung around the house all day and did whatever. i've been in some funky, shitty ass moods lately. i have no idea why either. worked at nexstore for the first time yesterday. it's like cake work. i've had so many jobs and so much background training, that the register and the codes were the only areas where i ( Read more... )

i got another job today. this place cornerstore or nextstore or whatever it's called. i'm gonna be working in the café department, doing the same crap i did at starbucks. making coffee, making smoothies, serving pastries. it's pretty cool. i start tomorrow at four, so it should be interesting.

have i mentioned that karl really is my music ( Read more... )

today's my anniversary with karl. good stuff ( Read more... )

my ipod was communicating with me at work after that phone call.
why do i feel like i incredibly fuck up every good thing that comes into my life ( Read more... )

karl is my music soulmate. for real ( Read more... )

my job isn't paying. there are barely any dogs to take care of (and you know that's the only reason i'm keeping this job - because i love the animals), and they keep sending me home early. yeah, i'm sick and i don't feel well, but i had a ten hour day today. i was supposed to work a 7 - 5, one of the girls didn't show up, and i had to walk, feed ( Read more... )