Today was one of those days. I know i have to do stuff, but others don't want to coopertive. what is a person to do? I'm trying to keep myself distracted but, interest is gone or fading. Not just what i'm doing but, in my partner. i feel bad about myself, like icky. i'm unhappy about myself, my partner. i need to relieve this pain and just go out. ( Read more... )

I'm looking through photos, my (promise) ring, and listening to music. I think of the great times we had, but then the reality kicks in and reminds me of my saddness. Saddness of years of togetherness and nothing to show for it. Such as, my engagement ring, not only that but, our arguments, and the less time we spend with one another. I sometimes ( Read more... )

well, i haven't written in a long time. Things have been hecktic around this joint. Right now i'm sick, getting through my day. I recently had my first chem test, and i fucking studied for the thing, and i get a fucking 71%. so, now when i go to class mon, i can find out what the class average was. hopefully it is below my grade so i won't feel ( Read more... )

well, so far things have gone up for the better. first thing i was worried about on my list of things was money, secound my relationship, third school. Everything is up on all three things. With money, i got the wrong books for my chem class, and returned them for the right ones. And guess what? money back! Cha ching!!!! big time! 78.00 dollors ( Read more... )

right now, im a little ticked off...my boyfriend complains about money, yet he goes out with my brother to the bar. At first i didn't mind but, now it's getting on my nerves because it's every freaking week! Plus, he never really spends time with me. wouldn't it make you pissed? It's crazy but, i feel lonely at times.

today is so f*$&ed up....my uncles are total assholes, no comsideration for my mother. My mom had a car in her name, gave it to her brothers, but never signed it over. Why? cause her brothers told her it'll be ok. Now they left it in detroit at my grandmothers old house, and then moved it to a friend's back yardwith no plates. Well... wonderful ( Read more... )

my brother made this journal for me.....