i don't know what's wrong with me anymore...i have bad days a lot more often than i ever have before...i feel like i want someone to ask me what's wrong, but they have...more than once...i scream at myself to tell them, but the words never form...and the only thing i can ever bring myself to say is the everlasting lie of "nothing, i'm just tired ( Read more... )

last saturday, i went to work early. i got there around 3:45, an hour early, and was expecting to wait around before clocking in at 4:50. the real reason i had gone in so early was because i was hoping to be able to talk to rheanna. i wanted to be told by her, face to face, what was going to happen with my schedule. everything i had heard ( Read more... )

I just started writing and this is what came out...It's pretty random, but thoughts usually are ( Read more... )

You Should Be A Poet
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Work ( Read more... )

Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday dear Melissa,
Happy Birthday to you!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELISSA!!!

I can't believe we are all getting so old...18 years...we're adults now...are you ready for it?

SURPRISE!!!!!!!!!!

oh man...melissa's party was so much fun. she was amazed, no, "thoroughly impressed" that we all were able to keep the secret. she loved it and it made me so happy. plus, i can now stop lying to her...what a relief.

i think i have discovered part of the source of my recent feelings of depression ( Read more... )

I don't want to go to school tomorrow...I hate it. I can't wait for it to end. I'm torn though...part of me is thinking "Wow, it's already March!" but the other, stronger part of me is saying "Ughhh...it's only March!" I just want to graduate. I want it all to be over with. I'm sick and tired of school and it takes so much energy every day ( Read more... )

I am so glad that we're on vacation this week, but I'm a little sad that it's already Wednesday. Today I have off from work, the first since Friday. I'm working a double on Thursday, 11:30-6 on Friday, and 11:30-8 on Saturday. Then, I have Sunday off and it's back to school on Monday...ugh. Oh well, at least we're graduating soon.