OKAY so this is really buggin me.. i havent heard from stan basically since he came down here in APRIL. and i changed my screen name blah blah, well today i was signed on the old one, actually i signed on it last night i think and just never switched it back. and today when i came up from bein at the pool he'd sent me a message "i was in ( Read more... )

so my "delete" is almost 100%! not only did i delete him from my buddylist, and then went on to create a new account so that i wouldnt even be tempted, but yesterday i deleted his # from my phone and every other connecticut # i had in there. (GO ME!!!!!!!!!) i have never ever deleted him to this extent before. so i did that yesterday. TODAY i ( Read more... )

well so far my "delete" is working well. not only have i "deleted" him, but im changing screen names as well. i havent made it so far as to delete him from my phone yet, but this is a huge start.

"Did I ever really love Big? Or was I addicted to the pain?... The pain of wanting someone so unattainable ( Read more... )

surf(9:51:32 PM): hey tina ( Read more... )

i got to thinkin ab karma earlier.. and at first i was all gung ho ab karma.. sayin, yeah he'll get all this shit back one day, and then it occured to me... if karma is real.. (which to an extent i believe it is) then that means that i'm gonna be gettin some shit handed to me too... so then what if this is my karma? what if bc of what i've done ( Read more... )

whyyyyyyyyy ( Read more... )

"tina... call me later" HAHAH HAHAHHAHAHAH HAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA no really HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAQHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA how dumb does he think i am???! i mean really. why the fuck should i call him? there isnt a reason. if he wants to talk to me, he's got my number he can fuckin call me. otherwise, PEACE. I'm not responding to his ims either. bc fuck it. he ( Read more... )

"tina...bye" what the fuck.. seriously. where is the point in that??? you in connecticut now, a lot of fuckin good that does me now.

chris and I had a talk the other night about the way i sleep. the way i sleep now is for one, i dont like to be touched, and i like having my space to sleep, essentially i dont like to cuddle sleep anymore. but i used to love it. i used to always insist on being in the "nook". now i cant stand to be there. funny how things change. i asked him ( Read more... )