"Are we losing control?" | "Yes," under my breath, but I kept going.

[lissie_pissie]

★ If you don't care and/or are short on time, I give you the abridged version. It is basically the gist.

Abridged Version→ I had a beautiful day. I learned how to DJ, I picked it up so quickly, and I am so completely confident that if I needed to play a set while he ran off and did something, I could. I had a fucking BLAST

Comments

[leiascully]

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Oh, man, liking someone that much sucks sometimes. I am sure it will turn out aces for you, though!

This format was cute and handy! I did read the unabridged, though. ♥

[gentleflower]

I SAY YES TO ABRIDGED/UNABRIDGED VERSIONS. Because it is the cutest and I love how you summarize them and I love how they are in a list and I love reading that too. Except I love reading your unabridged versions even more because I love specifics and little details more than anything. Isn't it helpful to you to make an abridged version too? Maybe it helps you make sense of things or it makes you realize more. If it were helpful for yourself too, I'd keep doing it. If not, and you'd just be doing it for people who don't care or are short on time, I wouldn't put your time on it. SO IS THIS FORMAT HELPFUL TO YOU?

We went for a walk, got lost, picked flowers, kissed in cute places, climbed dirt hills, walked down railroad tracks, ran through sprinklers, got caught in rain.
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Do you even know how much I love this?

I LOVE THAT HE HAS HIS DJ STUFF IN HIS BASEMENT. PRINCE, PRINCE, PRINCE! Which songs?!
I am not surprised at all you were so good at being DJ Lissa!!

I was with him for 7 hours and it felt like 2

[lissie_pissie]

I'M NOT SURE IF IT'S HELPFUL, BUT IT IS FUN AND IT DOES MAKE ME FEEL BETTER KNOWING THAT PEOPLE HAVE CHOICES. SO YES

[gentleflower]

THEN I DEFINITELY SAY YES TO ABRIDGED/UNABRIDGED VERSIONS.

LITTLE RED CORVETTE. KAJJKLASJFKLSAJKL HM, I DON'T EVEN KNOW IT'S ABOUT THAT WALK THAT WELL.

OMG REALLY. ROOMMATES!! BOTH GUYS?? MOVIES!!! I THINK YOU NEED TO HAVE A MOVIE NIGHT THEN. BEER + LEMONADE, IN A CAN???
AWWWWWWWW NO YOU DID NOT TELL ME ABOUT RUBY AND HER PINK RHINESTONE COLLAR! THAT IS ADORABLE. DO THEY TAKE CARE OF HER TOGETHER?

Thanks for explaining, I get it now! Is he good at it?

And I know. It was one of my favorite things ever and I can't wait to put it in a movie. And it would have made such a good picture, too. I thought that. I thought about how someone should've been there to take a picture of that. I was seeing it too, I was seeing it so much. And also, you have to have a purple flower in your hair some time because that looks really pretty in my head

[lissie_pissie]

OH MY GOD, YOU MUST. IT'S ABOUT THAT WALK IS ONE OF MY FAVORITE PRINCE SONGS. DEFINITELY IN MY TOP 3.

BOTH GUYS AND ONE IS MARRIED. SO FOUR PEOPLE LIVE THERE TOTAL. AND THE BEER WAS IN A BOTTLE, HE OPENED IT ON HIS ARM MUSCLE LOL.

I thought so~ I don't really know advertising that well though.

I wish I could draw because I'd totally draw it.

I KNOW, THAT'S WHY I WAS PISSED, TOO! IDIOT. he's lucky I'm not as shallow as he is.

No. And actually smoking is one of his deal-breakers. He also doesn't like ketchup! When he said that, I told him I had to leave and that we couldn't be friends lol. He was like, "I can't kiss somebody who eats ketchup." And I was like, "Well, your loss then." and he was like, "Your loss too!" And I'm thinking, "not really, because I can always go kiss Nick instead, asshole, lol." But then he was like, "Nothing that a toothbrush can't fix."

[gentleflower]

"We're not going to do anything anyway because you're on your period."
OH MY GOD DIDN'T YOUR JAW DROP OR SOMETHING. LOL. You know what's standing out to me? That he's saying all of what he's saying because a lot of what he says are things you wouldn't normally say that soon. And I love that, and I love (and I don't even know him lol) the balance of how mature and immature he is or feels like to me.

I am very proud of your self-discipline and self-control. It is so easy to move too fast or too soon ♥

I can't expect him to sit around and wait for me to be ready for that. And he's 28 so he's gotten to get this out of his system probably, I don't know, I didn't ask, it's too early to ask but I haven't gotten through it yet.
You are making sense. My only question is how do you know you're not ready for it with him? Do you know what I mean? Not being ready with someone else, doesn't mean you're not ready for that other person, that person who may be right for you right now. Whatever happens with Randy, I don't think you could ever lose

[lissie_pissie]

Oh I know. And my god you don't even know the half of it! And he's like, "If we were at a different ~stage~ I'd suggest a shower." and I was like, "Well we're not, so--" "I KNOW, ALYSSA." lmao lmao

[gentleflower]

"If we were at a different ~stage~ I'd suggest a shower." and I was like, "Well we're not, so--" "I KNOW, ALYSSA."
JKLAFSJKLASFJKLASFJKLSFAJKL HE IS REALLY FUCKING FUNNY. AND CHARMING! LMAO LMAO LMAO

I told him it would have been so easy for me to just go insane and he said he knew.
I think you should be teaching classes on self-control. But I love that he knew that too, and obviously feels what you feel too. I am wondering when you are going to explode together lol.

You're right. Right now you CAN have both, but if it gets serious, then you can't anymore because that wouldn't be fair. It really is difficult because the way I see it, being in a relationship with Nick would not be the same as being in a relationship with Randy. At all. You'll have to find out more about what Randy's like when he's in a relationship. If he'd be demanding, if he could give you your space and time without freaking out.
And as for Nick.. he definitely doesn't know what he wants, I don't think.

lololol! That's really adorable, ten days!!

[century_fox]

I think that if your desire to be with him outweighs the fact that you're unsure about wanting to be in a serious relationship, then you should just go for it. ^^ He sounds like an awesome guy, and if you really like him a lot, having a relationship with him might turn out to be amazing.
I'm so glad that you had a great time with him. I am so happy to hear that things are going so awesomely for you! ♥

[theaino]

CUTE, CUTE, I APPROVE.

I liked the abridged version and found it helpful, but ultimately it all comes down to what you find most convenient.

I've definitely freaked out in the same way, and I get where you're coming from. Just the act of giving up a little part of yourself and letting someone in emotionally is scary, if that makes sense? There's so much potential to be burned and/or hurt and/or rejected. If that makes sense... Okay, shutting up now. But I know it will work out how it's supposed to bb.