Comments | lissie_pissie: it's my own design, it's my own remorse | help me to decide, help me make the most...

lissie_pissie

it's my own design, it's my own remorse | help me to decide, help me make the most...

Jan 06, 2009 00:52

... of freedom and of pleasure,
nothing ever lasts forever.

We watched that thing on the History Chanel about the predictions for the apocalypse in 2012.

I ended up bawling. It was horrible, I was having so many cruel thoughts and the prospect of this actually being true came crashing down all over me. "It's okay, I'm here," he said, as I clung ( Read more... )

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leucocrystal January 6 2009, 07:08:57 UTC

It's okay to be scared, even though I personally don't buy into the whole 2012 doomsday theory. I suppose it doesn't bother me because, ultimately, I'm not afraid to die. My brain can't see death as anything but an inevitability, so I just don't know how to be afraid of it. I once observed the autopsy of a teenage girl, just 16, and that kind of drove the point home in a way that statistics can't. She was six years younger than I am now. I don't know how to feel anything but fortunate for the time I've had. I've been, overall, happy enough with what I've done and the people I've shared my life with.

Even if the world does end in 2012, how is that any different than the inevitability of death (albeit in some other way) at any other time? One way or the other, it will always end. That's life. I wouldn't let yourself get crippled by worry about something that, if it ends up to be true, is just as unchangeable as that.

lissie_pissie January 6 2009, 07:17:35 UTC

I'm not afraid of dying. My whole issue is that I don't want to die not having accomplished the things I want to accomplish. That's what nobody is understanding here. I haven't done enough yet.

leucocrystal January 6 2009, 07:19:34 UTC

That's true of any life though, isn't it? I'd imagine even people nearing the end of their lives still have hopes and dreams they want to accomplish, but never have. Some people lead very small lives all the way up until the end. It's not wrong to want to do more with your time, but the tragedy of life is that it can easily end before anyone is able to do that.

I just try and worry about one day at a time, as they come. You do what you can until you can't anymore, and I don't think it's healthy to expect any more than that.

Edit: As Scully asked Fellig, "How can you have too much life?" Theoretically, you feel that you can't (though I still think immortality would be a curse, not a blessing, personally). But isn't that what makes life precious? The fact that it inevitably will end?

lissie_pissie January 6 2009, 07:31:40 UTC

I'm sure that's true for a lot of people.

the tragedy of life is that it can easily end before anyone is able to do that.
That doesn't mean it's okay and it doesn't mean that I can't be upset about it. It may be easy for you to shrug your shoulders and say "oh well, death is a part of life", and I understand that, but I can't just accept being robbed of even the CHANCE to experience the later part of life, figure my shit out, find a place, establish myself, create things. How can you be so okay with that, how can you not want to fight for that?

You do what you can until you can't anymore,
that's kind of my point. I'm barely even getting started, I can still do. In all respects - physically, mentally, emotionally. To have that end, yes it would be wrong ( ... )

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a_celeste January 6 2009, 07:28:03 UTC

I have you in my dream book, I can show you it. ♥

And I don't feel I should have to be punished for things I didn't do.
I think we punish ourselves because we can't do anything, because sometimes we really can't. Take the current even, with what's happening in Israel, specifically in Gaza. Could I - we stop terrorist and fundamentalist?

I would absolutely love it, if I knew the day I would die. It would make my life easier. I can overcome procrastination for one thing. I'm a planner. I like to plan things around dates. For some reason, I just don't fear it anymore - the act of dying perhaps, but not actually being dead. If it's 2012, I'd still like to be painfully aware, I'd die happier knowing I didn't spend how many hours trying to appease someone - when I'd kick the bucket in a year.

What if we do have the ability to change it? But why? I know the idea behind it is for the good of all, and you and CJ are good people. But what's life, if we do not have the choice between right and wrong? I mean, isn't that how we're shaped, by ( ... )

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lissie_pissie January 6 2009, 09:33:12 UTC

LOL!! that is so awesome! and he's adorable!

medland January 6 2009, 09:57:57 UTC

Is that you?

medland January 6 2009, 09:57:33 UTC

"You're affecting so many fucking people, Alyssa, more people than you even KNOW and that's where you don't give yourself enough credit."

I agree so so much with this. I think the only thing we can do is attempt to live each day to the fullest, fill our lives with beautiful things, create beautiful things and try and be the best person we can. So if we live till we're 100 we'll have done the best we could do but if we die when we're 25 then we can say the same thing.

soonersurrender January 6 2009, 10:35:01 UTC

I feel the same way - that there are so many things I want to do and see. And so many ways I want to leave the world. I want to die knowing that I've helped it in some way. But at the same time, I'm not afraid of dying, and I guess when it comes down to it, it won't matter to me what I did when I'm dead, because I'll be dead. And I'll either cease to exist or I'll go on to a better place ( ... )