... the here and there.

I was wondering what kind of stuff I had in this old Livejournal. So I got my login info and hopped in. I eradicated all my facebook posts pre 2012. I have some some insight into that time here, so cool.

Thinking of going back to this medium. If nothing else I can now take a stroll down memory lane.

Thoughts:

I have a ( Read more... )

I can't sleep. I always have writing on my mind when i can't sleep. I never do it though. Why? because i write from daydreams and if i start to write then i jar out of my thoughts and can't write. its an evil cycle. I'm not really sure how I was able to write what i have in the past. Maybe some day i'll get out of this massive writer's block. I ( Read more... )

So I honestly don't know if people read this... especially since its linked to my facebook, but some of you may know these moments, as you were there, or part of it or have heard the story ( Read more... )

its frustrating, cuz it wants you to send in your bills, BUT my bills are 95% due to my stitches 2 months ago. they won't cover injury bills, so i need to fill out an accident report. it also most likely won't cover my other stuff AND according to the research I've done in the past, will still cost me 300+ a month to have poor people's insurance. ( Read more... )

Dressing Over ( Read more... )

as a kid i was once beat up
a place sacred to me, the playground.
invaded by out-of-towners

a girl with a plastic camera on a string
that found my body
pain and not understanding

why do you come to where i play
where i run
where i slide

and hurt me
i wonder where she is now
does she still enter other peoples joy with destruction.

tbc?

So on somewhat of a whim I decided to go on a road trip to see the best friend. The thought was thrown out there on a Friday and the very next Friday i was on my way to Shepherdstown WV. I spent the first night with friends in Shepherdstown and then the rest of the weekend with my best friend, her son and husband. We attended a BBQ fundraiser on ( Read more... )

laying
beside me in bed
my head against your heart
your hand in mine
my hand in yours

drawing
lazy circles on my back
the beating of your heart
fills my head as we
lay
i wonder
how is it all so perfect

then i wake up.

one night dreams away
i threw my emotions key

into the night sky it flew
far beyond my grasp and gaze

i wasnt ready then
but i am now

someone caught my key
i dont know who

you are the holder of me
the keeper of my key and the missing piece

i release my soul to paper more than any other way
it understands my deepest thoughts
that speaking never will
even those i yet to understand myself
it can read between the letters and see beyond end
it never jugdes what i think or how i see my goals
paper soaks up my soul and turns it into poem