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[lime_gl0wstix]

I hate being on the computer and typing all the time. I want to be with people. I want to hear their voices from their lips straight to my ears, no digital middleman. I'd like to go hiking, to get back to nature, and to go camping again. Maybe the forest this time.

I hope going to June Lake again this year will do me some good. The problem

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[omglaserspewpew]

You're pretty great.

Even the greatest passions get tiresome if it's all you do. Especially if it's what you do in school. Take a break for a few weeks/months and try something new.

[lime_gl0wstix]

Thanks, A. I feel guilty for already spending my summer in vidya bliss, but my goal is to get driving practice as soon as my parents are done with their tax audit and aren't stressed out.

[mika_sama]

i was in this place a while back. i wanted to great something with meaning and recognition, but i didnt want to work for the skill i needed to do it.

but then i realized. i love to create, and i should focus on just creating ANYTHING, instead of racking my brain to try and create something with a meaning.

this may sound bad but i just do stuff i like, little conceptual pieces that have no real meaning to me. it's the people who view my art that give it meaning. and i think that's great, that my art can make people think.

just create dude. draw things you know you love, and mix and match. other people will see it and probably give meaning to something is just nice looking to you.

[lime_gl0wstix]

Thanks Mika :> I figure I'll just keep drawing through shit until I come out the other side.

[xbiteyourtongue]

let's disney soooon

[reivena]

>I feel like my spatial knowledge is dwindling because I've spent the last five years in front of a two dimensional screen, touching no one, feeling no one, speaking to no one except those who call on me

[lime_gl0wstix]

Cutting oneself off from others has the potential to do wonders for self-improvement, but I had no fulfilled that potential. It is a selfish and solitary pursuit indeed, and it is in this mindset that I feel no need to create art. I don't want to be selfish and alone; I want to be with people and affect people. This near-narcissism is what prevents me from making art. I feel guilty about being that involved in myself, stroking my own ego. I would rather make art and have it be appreciated because at least then I reach out to people.

I don't know what I would create even if I could do it all (well, you know, aside from him. I would like to make a life-size sculpture of him indeed). That's my current major setback. I don't know what I'd want my art to look like, what I'd want it to say, or even what medium it would be. I have nothing to say. My art has no purpose and I have nothing to express. If I limit myself to freelance, at least then my art would have a purpose in that my skills were useful for someone

[reivena]

I personally do not care at all how my art is interpreted, if it brings joy (or any other emotion) to anyone else, how its existence may affect others in some way, or how someone's view or opinion of me may change upon viewing my art. I realize I am the most selfish type of artist for the fact that I create my art only to please myself, which is generally connected to me releasing a certain emotional state or obsessive image I can't get out of my mind. I have to be narcissistic in this or else I would cease creating art. In doing freelance, I typically have zero emotional attachment to whatever it is I'm creating; with freelance illustrations, it quickly becomes a chore and ultimately angers or depresses me. This is why my freelance has become web development, as it's difficult to become emotionally bothered over lines of code (save for something not loading right, but this sparks a different part of my brain). It is rare that an idea for an illustration is presented before me that I think is innovative, intriguing and

[reivena]

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