And this is why i dont open up. Because every time i do it backfires. I dont get it. I really dont. I put all my trust into someone and now i feel like they dont trust me. Things are differnt now. As much as they say things havent changed they have. The way they talk to me and respond. How they are always tired. How they act different. Im ( Read more... )

Some how I always end up fucking things up. When ever something good or someone good comes into my life I always find a way to ruin it. In trying to be honest i always seem to end up stepping on toes. It kills me to know that I am hurting someone I care very much for. I would do almost anything for this person. I wish I could take back so many ( Read more... )

Taking a break from studying. I have to. If I dont Im not going to be able to concentrate. I am kinda nervous but also excited to take my test. I think I know my stuff. Im a smart girl! I know I can do it! I just have to have confidence. Its a lot to retain! I took my AED test yesterday. I did good... I got a 92%. I forgot one of the ( Read more... )

So its not as bad as I thought.... The EMT thing. I took my first test on Wednesday... and guess what.... I was scared shitless... not joking you. I was so nervous. I was shaking, I felt sick, i was almost ready to seriously freakout and start to have a panic attack... (and dont think i was the only one.. because the whole class was this way.. ( Read more... )

So huge wake up call to me... EMT is going to kick my ass this semester. Its good though. I will just be spending my life studyign like I normally do.hahah.. no big change there. I am really excited to start learning all the lab stuff. My first class - computer lab - was almost all boys. Its good though.. I never have to go to that class again ( Read more... )

I dont wanna work today (tuesday) nor do I want to work on wednesday nor do I want to start school on wednesday. I want my summer back. It was fun, but I want it back. I want to go do more things. I want to have more of a life. I am being a huge chicken right now with school. Like I want to be an EMT and everything, but it scares me to know ( Read more... )

Havent updated in like forever. Thats what happens when I actually have a life!! I think I will start with that. I love being done with school. I love the feeling of having a day where I can wake up at whatever time I want to. I love the fact that I dont have to study like crazy. I love the fact that I can actually go out and hang out with my ( Read more... )

Finally! I have waited sooo long for this day!! .. lol... School is done!! I finished my 100 question scantron test in 12 minutes.. lol.. It was good. Im gonna miss Theresa and Tim sooo much. They were awesome. Well im done with school... Well for a month.. I start back August 23rd.. That will be soo exciting. I will begin my EMT! Today ( Read more... )

So the official countdown is 1 day and 5 hours.... haha.. huge DORK.. i know.. but you would be excited to if you took a summer class like medical terminology. Its finally over!!! Well.. will be. I have completed my last full day of class. My last day is thursday, and I will only be there for like 30 minutes to take my test and that is it. ( Read more... )

Finally... Ornament Premire is over at work. It will be an alright week at work and it is my LAST WEEK OF SCHOOL!!! Im so excited. This weekend was a good one.. Thursday after class I went over amandas and we went swimming with Kimmy and my sister was there. We met a cute boy from Oklahoma. Friday I worked and then went to the Panic of the ( Read more... )