my life seems like something i don't recognize. i'm someone i don't know. i don't know how to fit together what i feel, what i know, what is and what i think should be. sometimes i feel so lost. i know i'm not the only person alive to go through this, but i feel so lonely, like no one could ever understand the torn feeling i have. i'm not sure why ( Read more... )

new years resolutions ( Read more... )

I saw the hot hottiest guy at the gym the other day. I must have been bored on the elliptical cause I was open-mouth staring at him as he left. I noticed someone laughing at me and manually brought my chin back up. I've been keeping an eye out for him, but alas, I haven't seen him again. Ah, eye candy ( Read more... )

oh man. i'm starting to panic a little. just about a month left. 28 days to be exact. i'm really hoping we have enough money. i'm really hoping our tent will be okay just seam sealing it, that it doesn't leak or rip...or something. i hope we're both not too out of shape when we get there. i hope i hope i hope ( Read more... )

i'm thinking of buying this ( Read more... )

so i guess it's my birthday. i'm now officially 27. GAG! only 3 years to 30. i definatly don't feel that old. i guess i'll feel 21 for the rest of my life. i've talked to people about that, some people just feel a certain age in their heads and never really feel the age that they are ( Read more... )

so i'm kinda worried about my cat. he keeps wet coughing, i know he has a hairball, but he won't puke it up! he almost did but he....i know this is gross...but just threw up in his mouth and then swallowed it. oh man, i felt bad for him. is that normal?! what should i do ( Read more... )

why do some guys refuse to just deal with the fact that they're losing their hair? i saw a guy at the gym, and from the front it looks like he's trying to have that straight bangs in the face hip kid thing going on. then you see the back of his head, and realize his "bangs" are really hair from the BACK OF HIS HEAD combed forward to look like bangs ( Read more... )

i know it's not normal how much i miss him. i think it's cause i don't have anyone here that i can really talk to about it, or anyone to hang out with ( Read more... )

i can't say this isn't the first time i've felt like this, but i really don't like hating the present and wishing for the future. i'm happy though that i made a decision that i'd been waffling on for over a year. what the hell is wrong with me that it took me so long? i wish that josh and i had never gotten back together after christmas. things ( Read more... )