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mayhaps i lied about completely embracing the lack of productivity in my life. im going through the motions of liking it well enough, but i do feel lazy. but, theres nothing i want to produce and am choosing not to, its just, benign laziness. harmless unproductiveness. leading to a feeling of emptiness more than unhappiness, because they are not ( Read more... )

today after colettes cup with alex and hannah i went to portsmouth for my wisdom teeth consultation. colettes cup was sweet cus will and alicia came unexpectedly, but i was acting odd and overwhelmed (me? really? yes.) the oral surgeons was less fun. he said i looked fifteen, big shocker. as of march first there will be gauze in my mouth and four ( Read more... )

for the first time, nothingness has a positive connotation. its not that i cant or im not, its just that i dont have to. everythings just happening, and i dont have to take an active part. this weekend's lazy sunday driving around was the impetus for the previous statement. it was a throwback to winters prior. just driving, beach hopping, having ( Read more... )

i just ate cereal with coconut on top and made a sorry attept at my french homework. hello 65 on the vocab quiz. i am going to be late for school, as i am in my pajamas and have to be there in 15 minutes (and i live in...whatever). and i also realized you have to GET senior release, not just not show up for your study halls. so i hope thats not a ( Read more... )

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      everything but the girl is lovebrought to you by the isLove Generatoryes, it indeed must take from your interest lists. but that reminds me, my everything but the girl cd is all scratched and cannot be played (actually, both are like that) i mean, if anyone has an extra "amplified heart" lying around...ill be a glad recipient ( Read more... )

so ive been away from home for a month and a day. learning all of the things i didnt realize that i didnt know. learning the gift of adaptability. learning how to be the one that leaves, and how different that makes missing people. learning how to observe, and make my own descisions based on nothing other than my natural reaction. not working, ( Read more... )

general update in the vague caroline format:-"old summer" ended...reese left. i went camping most days during this time. and experience a huge spectrum of emotions. i got the highs i dont usually get, but i certainly got my fair share of the lows. sometimes moderation is under-rated...enter new summer ( Read more... )

today when i was sitting at the secret bench (that isnt really too secret)talking to alicia about my life lately she ruffled my hair and said while laughing, "caroline youre a complete mess...and i love it". and i sort of just smiled...more proud than i should have been ( Read more... )