[well the high school kids are all fucked up, touchin' each other...oh my god]
hmmm
where to start? i wish my camera werent broken. ill start there.
i cant believe how terrible ive become at updating my livejournal. i think i tried too hard to sound profround before. i spell checked too often and made sure never to give only one side of my life. i counteracted any bad thing that happened with a great thing that happened and you left reading my livejournal posts with the thought that "shes pretty articulate and has a pretty balanced life. i think im going to start updating the here and now and not worry about giving only a slice or glimpse into my current reality.
this week is the first week ive had obligations in months. im helping out on the play and have to do all my independent studies since the quarter is over. i guess its fitting that im writing in my livejournal as a procrastination tool when the non existent reigns are appearing and tightening. im 5 for 6 with colleges, i was five for five until those fucking skid-marks rejected me...(i didnt want to go there anyway). so that leaves, wagner, uvm, columbia college, clark, and lewis and clark. i want to go to lewis and clark and columbia but those are romantic ideologies and wagner and clark gave me money. and wagner gave me more, and its not in asshole massachusettes...so i think thats the simple reason ill be in NYC next year. easy enough. i dont what everyones talking about with college being complicated.
my trip was a long time ago but high school still isnt my reality. going to colettes cup and tlaking to married 29 year olds about the process of decision making and how your brain follows intuition 9 out of every 10 times you are faced with a choice (which means you are only indecisive 10% of the time)...is my reality. im more inclined to think that making a choice, any choice, is more impulsive and less pragmatic...but thats really pretty irrelevent. and my reality lately has been being part of duo...letting more and more of myself pour into someone else and filling up the empty space with their life. its fufilling and quietly satisfying in its own unobtrusive way. i think thats a good way to look at love.
this is when were supposed to be all about the future, and im pretty much in the here and now. i enjoy parties and im cheerful in person and analytical in my head. nothing too tumultuous.
uhh...i guess id just like to know how you are all as much as id like to tell you how i am.
where to start? i wish my camera werent broken. ill start there.
i cant believe how terrible ive become at updating my livejournal. i think i tried too hard to sound profround before. i spell checked too often and made sure never to give only one side of my life. i counteracted any bad thing that happened with a great thing that happened and you left reading my livejournal posts with the thought that "shes pretty articulate and has a pretty balanced life. i think im going to start updating the here and now and not worry about giving only a slice or glimpse into my current reality.
this week is the first week ive had obligations in months. im helping out on the play and have to do all my independent studies since the quarter is over. i guess its fitting that im writing in my livejournal as a procrastination tool when the non existent reigns are appearing and tightening. im 5 for 6 with colleges, i was five for five until those fucking skid-marks rejected me...(i didnt want to go there anyway). so that leaves, wagner, uvm, columbia college, clark, and lewis and clark. i want to go to lewis and clark and columbia but those are romantic ideologies and wagner and clark gave me money. and wagner gave me more, and its not in asshole massachusettes...so i think thats the simple reason ill be in NYC next year. easy enough. i dont what everyones talking about with college being complicated.
my trip was a long time ago but high school still isnt my reality. going to colettes cup and tlaking to married 29 year olds about the process of decision making and how your brain follows intuition 9 out of every 10 times you are faced with a choice (which means you are only indecisive 10% of the time)...is my reality. im more inclined to think that making a choice, any choice, is more impulsive and less pragmatic...but thats really pretty irrelevent. and my reality lately has been being part of duo...letting more and more of myself pour into someone else and filling up the empty space with their life. its fufilling and quietly satisfying in its own unobtrusive way. i think thats a good way to look at love.
this is when were supposed to be all about the future, and im pretty much in the here and now. i enjoy parties and im cheerful in person and analytical in my head. nothing too tumultuous.
uhh...i guess id just like to know how you are all as much as id like to tell you how i am.