as i go over all my entries and i read the last ones... i am so unhappy no matter how much i try to sound. i didnt realize it then and it took this much to realize that my place is at home. God for so long has been telling me that and i ignored it and my mother... so here i go. I AM THROUGH WITH ALL THIS AND ARIZONA! i am coming home for good and ( Read more... )

Here's My Life ( Read more... )

things have changed ( Read more... )

it is time for me to come back home now ( Read more... )

tonight was interesting and a relief.
its good to know that you have people on your side
and who are willing to help.

Working out for liek 2 hours today was....
how do you say..
AMAZING!!!

i sure do love working out.
it makes me soo happy.

today was a good
and tomarrow will be a ton better.

i hope....

Have a good night!

♥ B

how can things get any worse

my heart is breaking
into tiny little pieces
the things that i have
loved the most always seems
to leave me.

what do i do God?

i head my grandma's song today... when i was at work. and on the radio. i havent heard it since last summer... i cried in the car. a little. i hold it in. a lot. it has been barely a year since she has died and it has been hard. very hard. no sleep... emotions in a reck... like a rollercoaster. i spent hours in the shower crying so no one would ( Read more... )

I have to think about the things i want in life a little bit more and realize that who i am right now, at this point, is not me. i need to make some changes and rethink about things. i have fallen into the trap that many other have. but it is over now i and i am through. no more for me and i quite. i am not a horrible person like you said but i am ( Read more... )

I hate making decisions. I don't know when i want to go back home. Move that is. i have no idea and frankly I am afraid that I will never know when i want to. Is that horrible? I dont think so, but for others [loved ones] it sucks. So i am just sitting back with all the thoughts in my head.....yay ( Read more... )

It has been a while since i have written on here. about 2 months to be exact.....
A lot of things have happened and changed. There are some that i like and some that i dont.

EXAMPLES:

Things i like:
-New puppy [Achillies]


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