Sooo... its been a while
things have changed,
and recently i have some of the most amazing times of my life...
because of someone ;) you know who you are...
i love friends and people who mean so much more.
even though things aren't what i or we would like them to be,
i am happy just knowing you.
i have never laughed so much in my life!
and no one understands me better lol
but i guess it goes both ways...
only time will tell,
but i wait.
i have realized that i cant control everything
i cant be so picky and demanding.
if i want to be happy i need to learn to compromise with some things
and i am learning.
i know what and who i want in this life at this time of my life..
and me, not having it right now... i am ok with that.
even if that means that it might never be again.
i am OK with that. i have learned a lot.
and that is what we must do in this life time of to learn from
the choices that we make in this world whether they are good or bad choices.
i have realized that i can be happy again in a relationship and not to be afraid.
not to always hold up a guard or grudge or to be always cold to everything.
that there are good people in this world and they can be trusted.
i love life right now.
yes the last two days have been hard and i am trying to put it all aside and realize that i can not change the fact of it all but accept it.
only being sad and never accepting the fact with it affect my life and ruin it.
yes i am tired of crying, yes i am sick of the games that are played, yes i am sick of not knowing whether to trust the person or not OR my feelings. i AM letting go and growing up. i will learn from every tear that i shed, i will remember every game that was played, and i will learn to trust people and my feelings. you have shown me that it is ok too... and i thank you hun... you have shown me that there are people out there who are genuine and care just as you do... again i thank you.
you will always be adored, cared for and loved...
you are a great friend and so much more
and recently i have some of the most amazing times of my life...
because of someone ;) you know who you are...
i love friends and people who mean so much more.
even though things aren't what i or we would like them to be,
i am happy just knowing you.
i have never laughed so much in my life!
and no one understands me better lol
but i guess it goes both ways...
only time will tell,
but i wait.
i have realized that i cant control everything
i cant be so picky and demanding.
if i want to be happy i need to learn to compromise with some things
and i am learning.
i know what and who i want in this life at this time of my life..
and me, not having it right now... i am ok with that.
even if that means that it might never be again.
i am OK with that. i have learned a lot.
and that is what we must do in this life time of to learn from
the choices that we make in this world whether they are good or bad choices.
i have realized that i can be happy again in a relationship and not to be afraid.
not to always hold up a guard or grudge or to be always cold to everything.
that there are good people in this world and they can be trusted.
i love life right now.
yes the last two days have been hard and i am trying to put it all aside and realize that i can not change the fact of it all but accept it.
only being sad and never accepting the fact with it affect my life and ruin it.
yes i am tired of crying, yes i am sick of the games that are played, yes i am sick of not knowing whether to trust the person or not OR my feelings. i AM letting go and growing up. i will learn from every tear that i shed, i will remember every game that was played, and i will learn to trust people and my feelings. you have shown me that it is ok too... and i thank you hun... you have shown me that there are people out there who are genuine and care just as you do... again i thank you.
you will always be adored, cared for and loved...
you are a great friend and so much more