I sometimes feel so old and tired but recently there is a new life in these old bones. And I know that 33 is not old, but that is sometimes how I feel. I actually wake with excitement and looking forward to the day to come! I have dreams again and I have hopes. I am still very dedicated to ADF and though I needed this much personal time to ( Read more... )

I was watching the first Grey's Anatomy of the season and as most who have known me I am a dedicated viewer to this show! I love it! The season started out with the characters healing from a mass shooting at the hospital and there were some lines that totally made sense to me. One was feeling like glue and tape is what is holding you together ( Read more... )

So, I sit and think of writing and yet I don't know what I want to write. Yeah I know the one that used to write everything out is not finding the words. I guess I could update yall on life in all ways. School is good, I am holding a "B" average in my classes. Work is busy becoming a FQHC and all that. The kids keep me running wild. The wife ( Read more... )

Today I was looking at my past blogs and writings on here looking for something. I just could not figure out what to send to the request that was made but knew I had written somethings. Simple things. But through looking at the stuff that was there, I could see just how much life has changed. I could see where there was progress and where there ( Read more... )

Well, I realized it had been some time since I wrote anything on here. I figure yall all needed an update on life. Things with yall know who are going smashingly wonderful! Everyday I am just amazed by her! I am in two classes this semester, comp one and psych. I took my first test and got an 88 in psych. I also got a letter asking me to join ( Read more... )

I walk out just wanting to let Blue get some outside time before bed and my mind was all lost in thought as it normally is and what do I see in the clouds, I Heart U! No shit really. The letter "I", a heart shape, and the letter "U"! And all I thought was wow, thanks Kindreds you do love me! It was what I needed and did not even know it.

You want the why written out ( Read more... )

Well, I am finally able to sit and write some of the transformation goals in life. I am enrolled in college and start classes on Aug 23rd! I am excited about that! I will be doing comp 1 and general psychology this semester. I am accepted in the physical therapy assistant program. In three years I will graduate with an Associate of Applied ( Read more... )

I see you there all slim and white
You call my name and I crave you
I want to wrap my lips around you
Suck in all you give to me
I long for you to be wrapped by my hand
feel you, touch you, taste you
sweet cigarette, you changed though
I no longer relax from you
I get sick at the action
sweet cig, thanks for the years
but no more, no more, no more!

Please bear with me as I have to get this out. I can not sleep till I do and what is on my heart eats at me all the time. I have to let out things that some may never understand and some will know too well. I need to write and so I do. I was listening to a song today that was played at my wedding. Everscene sings it and there is a few lines ( Read more... )