I feel like I can't breathe. I don't feel that I'm acting as myself any longer. I love my friends but I can't continue to party and degrade my body. It's not good for me physiaclly or mentally. I also can't stand being the third wheel. I also am extremely competitive so that is not a good thing either. I have made some dire mistakes and now I'm ( Read more... )

That's how everything feels right now. It's like I'm just going through the motions of everything and not even knowing what I'm doing. I am struggling with my friendships because of religion and I'm struggling with religion because of my friendships. Roar. I haven't been taking my medicine because I have to stop taking my regular meds to try my new ( Read more... )

So, I've been very confused lately. It's weird because I'm struggling between wanting to keep my grades up and not caring because I graduate in like three weeks, it's shocking and it really hasn't hit home yet but soon I'll be Middletown Alumni instead of Middletown attendee ( Read more... )

So, lately my grades specifically in English haven't been so hott. I have a problem paying attention, pretty much senioritus but I have been in the mood to write, specifically things of my own choice so I've written a few things and here are two of them ( Read more... )

to update my live journal! haha today I was having a crazy good time, I love it. However, Donald's class is pretty boring sometimes and tends to make me want to kill myself. Like, he himself is sort of humerous now that I don't hate his guts, but his voice and the room make me want to sleep and take all the fun out of life. Kirkendall was a far ( Read more... )

Well, I'm not a we, therefore I am an I, and thus I cannot be "we're the monkeys.." but anyways...I knew something wasn't right today. It was really strange because I was pretty much actin a foo around my friends and sort of being an ass and I was getting easily annoyed. (Ok, Ok, those of you who know me, know that I generally get annoyed pretty ( Read more... )

ok so i had to reset my password and i was so glad i did because the middle part of my password is CCCP which is basically what's on the soviet's hockey team jerseys. i knew i was a commy. haha siiike. no i just thought it was funny. In all seriousness though, I miss having kirkendall. I know Donald is supposed to be the shit, but I'm not feelin it ( Read more... )

Hey, I'm entering an entry upon the request of a few people. so here goes nothing ( Read more... )

Hey I'm back! After several months of not caring about this piece..i'm back! but only because alex reminded me..so thank ya! <3 alex <3 lol. I drove to baltimore with katie this weekend to baby sit my cousins all by ourselves! I was soo stoked! I was like OHH Baby! i can do it! yes yes yes! Ice hockey is going pretty well, i'm getting a loot better ( Read more... )

Why is there never a happy medium with me? EVER ( Read more... )