So...this is going to be a long one...lol...So...last night i went to a party...i was dd...jeff was at work. I tol everyonei brought(meghan, justine, kimie, chris and kevin) that i could drop them off of the bus station(the one at school) to go back to the dorm. This way i didnt need to make 2 trips downtown. So alll night meghan kept telling me ( Read more... )

I guess things are getting better...i am starting to stress out about pastry 4 year program, and my project for my co-op is due soon. I have barley even started it. I am just scared that i wont get in. This is my life my everything, and i just want to do good at everything. Besides that i guess jeff and i are doing better, and i hope we stay ( Read more... )

i am in a very nagative mood today. i hate everything...i have no where to go ne more...im just mad at the world. its all my fault. everything.

I was thinking the other day...what if i dont get into the P4 program...what if i dont get in! that is my whole life, what will i do for schooling, where will i go what will i do? i am afraid i wont get it. On top of it jeff is transfring and i am so afraid that i a going to loose him. He is going to be having fun with all of his buddies and ( Read more... )

I started my first day of co-op today...It wasnt that bad, i had a good time. I decorated like 50 million cookies, and i also dipped candies into chocolate. I am working in providence, one of my chefs works there...i had a really good time and i am happy that i working there...iam having a good time. School is good, i love jeff more than ever. ( Read more... )

I cant wait to go back, i am starting my co-op. Nothing to do here, and idk...im excited to start something in my career... :)

I hate this feeling of not knowing...it is the worst feeling. All i want to know is the truth, what is going to happen, is everything going to stay the same? am i going to like what i am doing in the real world? I feel hurt, betrayed. confused...i feel like i have lost a part of me...i am so confused, and i hate it. I want to cry. scream, yell, ( Read more... )

I dont want to go...i dont want to leave him here..i am scared...and i am starting to freak out. I have to go somewhere all new, and i dont know what to think. It is like starting all over again. I dont want to.

So i havnt been on here in a while...ehh? School is going great, i get alone with my room mate, jeff and i are doing good, life is good. I have no real problems, i got a 93 in my chocolate lab, and i loved that class so much. I am home for the weekend, and i saw gram, and nana and pappy. I wanted to see him bc he had a heat attack...:( but i a ( Read more... )

school is coming...that makes me happy!