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2017
原来真的可以感觉这么空虚。
Sleeping in the wrong bed can leave me so empty inside, because the affections don't extend beyond that.
But then again I'm reminded of how empty inside I felt the last time I shared Humpty's bed too.
So it's not just that I'm with the wrong guy for the wrong reasons.
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Merry Christmas.
Everyone is out having fun but me.
It was turning out to be a pretty decent Christmas too all things considered.
Maybe I did get so good at hiding emotions and pretending everything was okay. To have fooled people so, even the one who should least have been fooled.
And now its all out of control, these rampaging emotions stampeding ( Read more... ) -
Hard.
It's not hard...
It's not hard to see what each of them want more from me.
It's not hard to see motivations and reasons.
It's not hard to tell who has more heart.
It's not hard to tell who probably cares more.
It's just hard to be rationale and mature and smart and not be a fool. -
Gray
Against my better judgement I went to read through our messages from the beginning of time, or more specifically from our very first moments of communication ( Read more... ) -
Remember This...
This is a reminder to myself ( Read more... ) -
Sanctuary
Don't think...he says, and I obediently quell the thoughts, for the moment, and I don't think.
Shhh...he soothes and I bite back the questions and let the carnal pleasures lead me on.
In the last moments of dusk I swing in the hammock strung out on his patio, reading side by side with him as we pass a glass of sweet wine between us.
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How could everything feel so out of control and be spiralling so steadily into a tornado of mess ( Read more... ) -
The Other Side of the Coin
Last year, I was away, and lost track of time and days and forgot everything and everyone, but when the critical question comes up of whether I'm attached, I would still honestly reply yes, then proceed to act like I'm not ( Read more... ) -
Him
I dreamt of him last night, except it wasn't the correct him I should be dreaming of.
We were at a camp. I guess it was a learning experiential camp of some sort. We were trying to find time to be alone with each other.
Somehow or other, we were sent on an errand to get stuff for the camp. Both of us hopped in a cab, and we wanted to rest.
We ( Read more... ) -
The Love Dilemma
It's been 22 days since I got back from my journey. In these 22 days, I've been extremely confused, and it doesn't look like it's clearing up anytime soon ( Read more... )