The Other Side of the Coin
Last year, I was away, and lost track of time and days and forgot everything and everyone, but when the critical question comes up of whether I'm attached, I would still honestly reply yes, then proceed to act like I'm not.
This year, I'm here, and again I've lost track of time and days, though it's hardly possible to forget everything and anyone when I'm still here. And when the critical question comes up, I still honestly answer yes, then proceed to act like I'm kind of not.
Both times there have been tinges of regret at my honesty.
i really do wonder, what if I hadn't been so honest each time? What possiilities could there be then?
It does feel good to be showered with attention, even if the directions are abit off. But then again why should the directions be deemed off just because?
Temptations are everywhere, and I don't know if I can possibly be strong enough to avoid them, especially not when I've been such a mess this period and he's not around to care.
I've always wondered what it would feel like to be on the other side, and now I'm on the other side and I don't quite know what to feel.
I honestly forgot I was attached...again.
This year, I'm here, and again I've lost track of time and days, though it's hardly possible to forget everything and anyone when I'm still here. And when the critical question comes up, I still honestly answer yes, then proceed to act like I'm kind of not.
Both times there have been tinges of regret at my honesty.
i really do wonder, what if I hadn't been so honest each time? What possiilities could there be then?
It does feel good to be showered with attention, even if the directions are abit off. But then again why should the directions be deemed off just because?
Temptations are everywhere, and I don't know if I can possibly be strong enough to avoid them, especially not when I've been such a mess this period and he's not around to care.
I've always wondered what it would feel like to be on the other side, and now I'm on the other side and I don't quite know what to feel.
I honestly forgot I was attached...again.