life sucks. Yup....i hate everything I feel.....wanna curl up & die...

I have this overwhelming urge to just cry. I feel wicked sad and depressed and happy all at once. I'm really confused. Why do things have to be so complicated? Cant at least a few things in life go alright. Oh well I guess thats life ( Read more... )

So I was very proud of myself. I ended things with him on my own terms. He was mad and didnt uderstand but what was I to do when he tells me shes coming to visit. I told him how I felt about him and told him it was to hard on me to play these games. Its hard though b/c hes calling me and still wants me around and I dont know what to do b/c I am ( Read more... )

So yea the past few days have been hectic. Tomorrows gonna be crazy too. Have to be up mega early b/c have to go to the hospital with my mom for my dads surgery then I have to rush to work(lovey closing) and then run a million errands on my lunch. On top of everything I a sick which sucks. Cant seem to kick this thing!! At least I get to spend ( Read more... )

So its been 8 months of back and forth but I always end with the same feelings. He makes me happy and I'm comfortable with him. :-) I'm happy!!! Cant wait to go to Texas in 3 weeks!!

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I am unusually happy lately. Things are going quite good but kinda confusing. hehe. IDK I am silly. I bought the Bon Jovi Crush Tour DVD n its really good......so much hotness!!!! hehe. Havent updated this thing much but yeah. Cant believe Christmas is almost here. Cant wait to be done shopping. lol..never thought there'd be a day I'd say that. ( Read more... )

I had fun tonight. It was cool to see everyone and even better to have gotten along with everyone. Nice to see everyone. Get to c Jennie tomorrow!!!

Well today I went home early...b/c I was feeling kinda sick and also b/c I didnt wanna c Jim today especially after what happened yesterday. Hes the one who was all uncomfortable with our situation and freaked when we got to close so he ended it, but the minute he thinks there is someone else he freaks. And to accuse me of being with someone that I ( Read more... )

Happy Halloween everyone(I know its tomorrow but oh well)!!!!