XXXXXXX [1:43 AM]: Lauren is a sweet. goood hearted caring girl.. shes fun to be with... outgoing. always up for a good time.. shes beautiful... in everyway. nice body.. nice eyes nice smile... She just happened to destroy me single handedly.. and i wanted to kill her for awhile for it. but then i realize i cant blame her... i just want to kill ( Read more... )

i really just need to chill the fuck out.

i should have just left it as it was... not thinking of it for a day was very nice, and to think i thought it could have lasted... who was i kidding? please get better.

no more worries [he called] :) (and no homework either!)

oh thank goodness. not even joking i am so glad that everything is okay. of couse he could have called me back instead of having me freak out for 550 years but thats alright. now i just need to hear from him and recover from my heart attack.

stupid livejournal never lets me finish. anyways im just gonna stop because this is going no where but i hate this feeling.

oh gosh. i hate being so concerned when i could just be being very stupid but i dont know. where is he?? im not being posessive and crazy but its just wierd that he hasnt called or been online for this long . its scary. so scary. and i know i cant do anything at all so idk but i just get so worried and it dampers everything and i wish i could not ( Read more... )

i realized. that we're only this way for now. it'll be there but unspoken if things change. and i need things to change for him. but i dont want to let go, for me. why does everything have to be so complicated?

cell phone
computer
door knob
fridge
notebook
no period
fat
ugly
yesterday
today
"mads"
"jazz"
stupid
don't understand anything
ms stezano
MAKE THIS WEEK END RIGHT NOW

oh. my . god .