neurons are engaged
face is salty
joints are vibrating
you will take off
i will take off

at this moment i am in an intense battle with a box of oreo cookies.  i relapsed last night at CVS when i saw all of the valentine's day candy lined on the shelf, all glittering and shiny.  for some reason i settled on oreo cookies.  i ate quite a few last night and felt ashamed of myself vowing that i would throw them away and be done with them ( Read more... )

the art in new orleans was out of control.  this guy tanner was out of control.  hauntingart.com


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i hate the color gray ( Read more... )

i had a crazy lady that told me at mellow mushroom a  couple months ago and jesus told her to tell me that something 'good' was coming my way.  yeah well that was a crock of shit.  jesus is really laying it on thick.  and yes, we're still in competition.

jesus - 5
laura - 1

brooks and i went hiking today.  at topsail state park.  it it really considered hiking if it's on sand?  i always thought hiking meant mountains and streams and such.  i've been obsessed with getting in shape lately.  i've always had this theory in my head that if some horrible natural disaster happened and i had to run for my life that even with ( Read more... )

death has been a reality for me lately.  it's been swirling in my head weaving black bows of regret.  that being said i'm making a bucket list.  a task i have long put off in search of a life that (i thought) was expected of me.  no mas..

in no particular order:

create a scrapbook of the cruise for my mashelby (in progress)
finish my story molly ( Read more... )

brick wall.
i've hit it.
not only have i hit it.  but i was going 150 miles an hour on a bike with no helmet.
not only that but my front wheel was the first to hit propelling my body into a somersault over the handle bars.
i coincidentally crushed my spine and am paralyzed for life leaving brooks to take care of me. 
even worse i will soon lose ( Read more... )

i have this memory.  i think it might be the earliest vivid memory i have.  most of the details are muddy.  like the dialogue.  i can remember i was crying but not crying hard.  it was the kind of cry where your body kind of tenses up and your face flushes hot, your eyes well up with tears but not ever enough to actually drop down your face.  so i ( Read more... )

couple of notes from the week ( Read more... )