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[ladysilverangel]

It's sad, so sad
It's a sad, sad situation

It's also 3.19am. Yeah, I really gotta do something about my sleeping patterns.

I remember thinking a lot of things that I could write in here tonight, but I got distracted. As always. As forever. As Now.

Oh yeah. Sunday will be 3 years since he died. Sometimes I feel like it's been longer, sometimes it feels

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[eyrehead247]

Since I am fairly new to your journal, I must ask, who died 3 years ago?

[ladysilverangel]

Ah, it's not really something I've explained to anyone really, I don't think. Person who died = boyfriend who died. And I'm all mixed up over it, because I was kind of glad when he died... he was a pretty... um... not-so-nice person to me at times. I was going to break up with him the weekend he died.

[eyrehead247]

EEK! That is weird!

[ladysilverangel]

Yeah, that's one way of putting it, lol.

[why_me_why_not]

*big hugs*

I don't know what else to say; there's actually nothing I really can say, I'm sure, but if you ever want to talk, I'm willing to listen. Spring is my good time, actually, the fall is my down period, and though I can't say I understand, I can relate a little bit.

[ladysilverangel]

Thank you so much *hugs* it's never something I really want to talk about, because it really doesn't affect me... I more want to talk about the fact that it doesn't affect me and I feel like a bad person because I think it should, lol.

Spring = good. It's a pity it's nearly fall for me. But I love all the pretty colours

Thank you :-)

[why_me_why_not]

for whatever reason, i didn't realize you were in Austrailia. opposite seasons and all that.

I'm sorry it makes you feel like a bad person b/c it doesn't affect you. Just out of curiousity, is that because you've dealt with it, or because of something else?

The reason I ask is because I'm not affected as much as other people think I should be by my daughter's death anymore. I made my peace with that and yeah, it gets to me sometimes at rare moments, but not like it used to or still could. My ex, on the other hand. He was not very nice to me. And if he died tomorrow, I honestly don't think I would care. By the time we physically split, the person I had fallen for had been dead for years and I've made my peace with that too.

Also, you're kinda young to have had to go through something like that, and I really hate that for you. I mean, I know that life is shitty like that, usually to the best of us, but in the end it makes us stronger. *loves*

[ladysilverangel]

I don't think I ever really dealt with it... it's kind of hard to explain. I know what you mean though, and it's funny to think that people outside are more affected by the death of our loved ones then we are. But then again, I was never really hit hard by the splitting of my parents or any of the other shitty stuff that's happened in my life. I don't know what it is, but I just seem to... accept and get over very quickly. Maybe it's because I have been through a hell of a lot of crap, and maybe I am just that stronger person... and don't realise it?

Thank you!!

[sbrande]

sorry to be ignorant, nut who died? I'm so sorry for your lose :(

[ladysilverangel]

lol, it's okay. I've never really explained it. Don't stress about it, but thanks :-)

[moya_ubiytsa]

*hugs tightly*

I love you?

[ladysilverangel]

I wuv ooo!!

[clarebear_24]

its been 3 years :0
i thought he had been dead longer than that !! :P

dont feel bad im sure he is happy whereeva he is anyways :)