i did this same quiz a while ago... see previous posts. thought i'd do it again to see how things have changed. LOL ( Read more... )

kill myself today. Its not pretty to think about. I've thought about stepping in front of a car, walking out into the ocean and doing my best to drown, throwing myself down the stairs, hanging myself, slitting my wrists. all of those things sound so painful. then i remembered i nearly died this weekend, by something that wouldn't have hurt at all. ( Read more... )

for me to listen to such melancholy music when i'm in such a mood. I just read the saddest story I think i've ever come across. my heart is aching for love i've never had and the touch of a lover, of a soul mate. the concept sounds so stupid these days, when people meet online, and live in their computers (much as I appear to be doing more and more ( Read more... )

 I was trembling when you walked through the door. I was sick with something, but I wasn't about to tell you that. When you texted me, saying I was on your mind, I couldn't resist you. Even now I can't. I told you to come over. My parents were out of town and I was an eager 17, hoping something would finally happen between us. You had a girlfriend ( Read more... )

 My New Year isn't going well so far. Basketball sucks ass. Our record is shit right now, but thank goodness pre-conference crap is over and we get to start with a clean slate for the games that actually count. Sadly, we were humiliated the other night and it's been all over ESPN. But hey, at least I can say I was on ESPN. I've been on tv, but I ( Read more... )

 i thought i'd post since i'm online checking things anyways. i went to the doctor today. got my blood drawn. i'm getting tested for anemia, thyroid problems, diabetes, and who knows what else. i even had to pee in a cup. no idea why. then, i had to go to the eye doctor to make sure there wasn't anything wrong with my eyes that's causing my ( Read more... )

fuckkkk. that's all i have to say. i hate my life right now. i hate everything. i may be pmsing, but i really feel like the world is coming down around me. i know that's a little dramatic, but whatev. i'm at home right now, thank goodness. but i'm going back to the same lame ass things as usual tomorrow. I HATE BASKETBALL. ugh. oh, and i have a ( Read more... )

 Do you have condo​ms in your room?​​
nope. who needs condoms when you don't have sex?

What were you doing​ last night​ at 9?
sitting in my bed watching movies.

What are you doing​ tomor​row ​night​?​
probably nothing. maybe everything.

Do you still​ talk to the perso​n you last kisse​d?​​
yes

Are you in a good mood?​​
not at all

Do you use smile​y faces​ on ( Read more... )

Okay, so I've been talking to Kelsey a lot about how I'm really unhappy here at our current school. At the beginning of the year I thought it was just because we were having a really tough pre-season. I survived pre-season and for a little bit I thought maybe I could do this. I could stay here and be happy. So I tried not to show it so much that I' ( Read more... )

10 diffe​rent thing​s you want to say to peopl​e ( Read more... )