some things are better left in the past, but when it keeps coming back. it makes you wonder. why hasn't it moved on?

i miss you, incredibly.  it just goes to show how much apart of my life you are.
and how much i love you.

In your message you said, you were going to bed ( Read more... )

i wish i could just get up and go.
i love being around  my family and friends, but at the same time, i just feel like nothing is happening.

i'm going to give myself time, but if nothing gets accomplished soon, then i feel that i should go.
if nothing is happening that will give me a reason to move, but don't worry, ben is coming with me.

Come away with me in the night ( Read more... )

so i met ben's family the other day. i wish it was under better circumstances, his grandmother had recently passed away. his family was super nice to me, and they're actually really funny. they remind me a lot of benjamin ( Read more... )

there are always double standards for everything. i have recently found it especially  in friendships. -remember i reciprocate what is given ( Read more... )

i'm going to start trying to keep up with my resolutions. i went to the gym today and worked my ass off for 40 minutes. it's a good start.

now on to other things.....

fights happen, that's only natural. it's just important to get past the fighting, and the anger/annoyances.
communicate with me, at least try to communicate with me in the way that i try to communicate with you.

so i was told today that i was a little bit of a negative person, it got rubbed off on me ( Read more... )