all i want is happiness ( Read more... )

i'm not going to compromise my integrity for you.
i wish others would do the same.

fillers.

please understand, i am doing this for your benefit.

do not push me.

i try my best to be a good person, and sometimes that means biting my tongue.

for the past few months, all i've heard about from female friends is how their relationships are falling apart. i love ben with all my heart and i am grateful everyday that we have such a good relationship. we aren't perfect, not by any means, but we are so compatible in so many ways, and the fact that we understand each other. it makes me think ( Read more... )

more like a nightmare. i had a nightmare that ben was cheating on me with someone crazy, as we were about to get married. in the process of breaking up with her, he decides to end our relationship as well. i am hysterically heartbroken at this point in the dream and in essence don't know what to do with myself.  the setting of this dream was some ( Read more... )

i absolutely cannot wait for my vacation with ben. i need a break, i need something different to happen to me already.
i've started setting some goals for myself. i wish i had more to work with, but it's a start.

stop complaining and do something!

new motto.

makes me want to go on a spiritual journey of my own.

i just want to be an adult already. with an adult life, with an adult paycheck.

i love you with every single fiber in my body. i never want to be away from you for longer than we need to be away from each other. you tell me that you want to do this for me. for us, so that we can have things easier, but how am i supposed to be without you? no matter what i say or do, i am part of a two-some. you are so much apart of my life now ( Read more... )