Bitches be Cray

Thinking I can't play the game as well as them......... lol ohhh it's only just begun!!

if only to forget for a momentary forever none of it even equates to what we really want to feel. nothing. you can stitch yourself back together a thousand times, and run new thread in your skin like some rag doll rehab, and push yourself further over this metaphorical self losing cliff, but we we chose something entirely else... we pace in a ( Read more... )

shits gettin deep here.........

Now Granny won't let me get rid of anything, or move anything to make room for the baby, it's not permanent, it's fucking temporary, her plan is for me and krissy to share the back bedroom, with both kids, she's fucking nuts and I'm about to punch her fucking face in I swear to god!!!

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I can't stop crying, god I was sooo delusional........

I honestly thought that he would care, and want to be around.
He wants me to give the baby up for adoption.........

well the funeral was to be honest, a slap in the face of my grandmother........... but nothing I can do about it. It's odd to think that she's not here anymore, that we will never hear her voice again, listen to her stories of Key West in the olden days and what it was like. So many memories and secrets were buried with her. I wish I had listened ( Read more... )

haven't talked to Charles in alomst a week, and when I finally did we got into a fight, or rather a fight started and he just signed off, and isn't talking to me, because that's his way of dealing with things. Which doesn't bode well for when the baby comes. I don't know who I'm kidding, thinking that things will work out with him in the long run, ( Read more... )

This is the farthest I've ever been in a pregnancy, truth be told I am scared shitless about it. Things are soo stressful lately, Charles is 2300 miles away, and by the time he comes back for good our child will be about 5 months old. Sometimes I feel like I'm with someone who was deployed. though I imagine that is much much harder ( Read more... )

the year just started and already it sucks, my boyfriend is leaving in a day, and isn't coming back for at least a year, my best friend was just arrested and i don't know when he will be getting out, and one of my other best friends, isn't a part of my life anymore, because I don't like her bf...........

YAY 2012

today I start excerising daily.
Eating less, drinking more water.

goal is to weight 250 by christmas. that's six months to lose about 30 lbs, I think I can do it!!!