Do old characteristics of a former self ever completely leave, or do they become veiled by complexions of continuous growth?  I had a moment today, a moment that I regret:  I had realized that I had made an error, one that couldn't be undone.  Finally, all of the pressure of the water had broken the dam and unleashed a flood or perhaps a ( Read more... )

I'm fucking sick of this driving issue.  Somedays or nights, I can't even drive to Bay City and back without getting extremely nervous and defensive.  I'm sick of it; how the hell is someone supposed to live in this world if they can't get over a fear a driving?  Something that is necessary for everyday life?  It all makes sense though; my laziness ( Read more... )

Walking through the halls of Delta reminds me of how empty this life is.  People sit around, talk to others around themselves or talk on the phone, while I walk on by.  I feel I have reached an impossible threshold; I cannot break it.  I cannot escape nor can I surrender; I'm just stuck.  Hardened by the outside world, I am forced to keep quite, ( Read more... )

Despite all of my happiness throughout the day, I have managed to break again.  When the heart is tender enough, it doesn't take long for sorrow to seep through from the outer world and into the heart.  I was so happy today that I wanted to tell so many of my friends.  I told about three.  I find it fun, but what's the fun if there is no one to ( Read more... )

Emma's letter finally came today!  I was so happy happy when I had seen a big envelope with a Great Britain stamp on it.  The letter is very plain and straightforward and the ink is very faint, so I won't post it.  Instead I will post the signed picture!  Yay!

( Letter and Picture! )

     So, has anyone seen the cover art of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows?  I looked at it today, and I have to say I like it;  it definitely has me eager for July 21st!   I'm also very, very happy that Rupert, Dan, and especially Emma have decided to sign contracts for the last two movies!  When I seen TMNT the other day, which was a ( Read more... )

I

am

a

fool

for

letting

kindness

consume

me. 

Tonight, although slightly better, I am angry.  I'm sick of people abusing me.  Anger has been easy to catch lately, and as a result I have been punching many random things.  To add further to this topic of anger, the other day I stumbled upon some random memories of my years in middle school, and no, they were not good memories.   Teased, picked ( Read more... )

My Id insists;

My Superego resists;

And my Ego answers
as it always has 
and ever will:

it lies...

How could I have been so stupid?  How fast life can change; one minute, you might be in your room feeling more alone than ever before, then a few days later you're around people who you think are your friends and are having what you think is a good time.  All I had to do was say no; if only maybe I had worked early that morning, it could have been ( Read more... )