I think I have partially figured out why I have such cold feet with getting married (thank god!! haha). It scares me shitless to essentially have to put your full trust into someone. Until you get married it seems like it is so much easier to just up and walk away. As of a month however, I will no longer have that option. Not that I WANT to ( Read more... )

I know it is a bit early but a bit of a head start on New Years Resolutions could not hurt, right? So here we go....subject to change, of course ( Read more... )

I worry way too freaking much. I hate it. It's my curse. At least once I sit down and plan out a plan of attack for the problem though, my mind is temporarily appeased and I can function normally. In this case, I can hopefully finally sleep. Still sucks I just go from one worry moment to the next though. Will it ever end?

I had one of the best days at work today. I have no idea why. I have been so apprehensive at work lately with the build-up to the holidays and the fact that because of work, I really don't get much of any holiday time. I literally have been going in depressed on some days. And then a day like tonight comes along. Went by really nice and quick ( Read more... )

Well now that essentially almost everyone either knows or is about to be told.....John proposed!!!! I do not consider myself a girly-girly hardly at all and yet I'm so giddy over this, it's not even funny. I'm going to spend the rest of my life with the love of my life....can't get any better then that. It's going to be surreal to get my ring in ( Read more... )

Granted it has taken....oh, like six years....but....it's about freakin' time.

I've just realized how freakin' forgettable I am. Some people can either brighten or fuck your life up for years to come and yet here's me....*poof*....who was she again? Makes me think that these people who claim my importance in their life are just all full of shit. The second it's done, it's like I'm erased. But until that point, all I hear ( Read more... )

I think I'm destined to have a New Year's that ultimately SUCKS. Granted that can be from a number of factors. Missing someone, getting too trashed for my own good, doing something I shouldn't, causing drama, doing absolutely nothing...and this year's favorite....being pissed off to all hell at the ONE person I wanted to have a good New Year's ( Read more... )

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There are just certain mornings where you wake up naturally and it's perfect. The bed is warm. You are comfortable as hell. Your whole body just tingles still from the night before. Even snuggling up against your sweetie feels divine. And then the inevitable happens. That stupid alarm. Grrrrr. At least I had set it to a good song last night ( Read more... )