Okay, so I haven't been on a lot. I know, and I haven't talked to many people. I've been too busy. With what, you may ask? Well... I have found someone who, not only strikes my eye, but, holds me in high reguard as well. No, we aren't together. We communicate so well. I just haven't had the need to be with friends. Then, I decided that I needed to ( Read more... )

Today made me rethink a lot of things. I can't seem to make up my mind about who I should or shouldn't hang out with. I almost started to cry today while I was with an old friend from middle school and an ex boyfriend. I'm sorry I grew so distant from her. Her name's Brandi and she's one of the most miraculous things that's ever happened to me. I ( Read more... )

I now remember the reason why I hated life here, and I still do appreciate coming back, but, damn. I have such an awesome time with my friends. I can do everything I want without worrying about being rejected, but, the moment I come home I am nothing more than trailor trash. I'm nothing. I can't fucking ever be enough. She wants to bring "dad" back ( Read more... )

Okay, so now I'm back at home! Yay... I can't stand CA. I'll never go back unless there's actually something there for me. In any case, my mother and I had a great plane ride. We hade the row all to ourselves and we had the middle seat taken up by this pillow that isn't normal. It's cylander shaped and filled with little beads... We sat it down and ( Read more... )

"I see you watching, looking back at me. These hellish eyes, they are not me. I see the blood and saliva dripping from your tongue. Did the angel fall? When was this monster born? Why do I sit here, standing at this face? These wings of mine, they have been burned away. These wings of mine, they have been BURNED AWAY." The Cruxshadows, Fallen Angel ( Read more... )

When someone wants to get to know a girl on a romantic level, they should make sure she is aware of certain things that are incredibly influencial on their decision as to whether or not they want to get into a relationship with that person. In this case, the guy thought that if he could get a girl to like him so much, she wouldn't care whether or ( Read more... )

I wonder if anyone else has ever been in such a state of misery that you can't tell how bad it really was..I mean, damn. This is one of the worst days ever... And the only good part was when I met two guys at the hot tub who talked to me and gave me a couple of ciggs. I obviously don't mean anything to this family which is a good thing, because I ( Read more... )

Just a few more steps and I'd be off the edge of the cliff. I'm more than sick of being in this place. I need to get away. I need to stop having to deal with people who piss me off. I want nothing more to do with this place, and as my birthday approaches, I know that I'll be hurt in more ways that I can imagine. I just want everyone to leave me the ( Read more... )

This is where I can do nothing but wait. Keep my mouth shut and wait. I am getting what I always get for my birthday. Whatever my latest greatest fear is. "Happy birthday, daughter, I'm going to keep you in solitary confinement for the last birthday you'll share is a kid." Thanks, you whore. I'm so sick of everything you do to me. You make me smile ( Read more... )

I suppose there comes a time where you don't want to write a poem. Where you feel it's more simple to just write what it is that you feel. This is one of those moments. I feel lonely, depressed and harassed by memories of a good past and perhaps a bad future. I hate my life. So full of facades. So full of controversy. I want stability, damnit! And ( Read more... )