state music. scary. i know i can do it, but i'm afraid. people say i'm "intimidating". i really wish. i just don't see how i could be. my voice cracks all the time and is in no way perfect. but apparently...it's true. i want to make state so bad. i hope and pray i make it, but all i made last year was district. i'm a senior. i'm suppose ( Read more... )

wow, i never write in here. nothing of much intrest to type about. well, i'm sure i could think of something but then everyone would be on me...wanting to beat the crap out of me...so we'll steer clear of that subject ( Read more... )

a poem i wrote today ( Read more... )

does anyone else think that it is weird that really only one thing right now puts my mind to ease? is anyone else like that? i hope so.

i want to write. but what to write about? i hate writing the same things over and over again in all of my diaries. i want to write something different but what? i dont want to write about my project. or the "final four." so what do i want to write about ( Read more... )

am i in the so called "fab four"? id really like to know. that would be cool but i dont see why everyone is getting upset. or at least why one person is. i just dont understand. if it does tick you off that badly, go make one. go make 4 for all i care. just dont get mad at me for something that i cant control and dont want to control. i am ( Read more... )

tried to go dress shopping and nothing came of it. gosh, i hate shopping!!! but i love it at the same time. i just wish that there was a store and it was all for me. all i had to do was pick out exactly what i liked and it would fit me like a glove and never shrink or anything. gosh, what a dream come true!!!! wouldnt that be awesome. and ( Read more... )

winter formal, why cant you just come? it is hopefully going to be a blast. chelsey has a date to winter formal and so now...she isnt in the middle. and both of us are pretty excited about that little fact. i know i just want it to come sooner!!! i am ready for it. and dan...you need to go. you just need to!!!! get over you fears and go!!! if ( Read more... )

just a quote from the musical; perhaps my favorite line or one of my many favorites ( Read more... )

today...a better day. i am really excited right now and i dont know whether or not i want to say why but it was a good day. things seemed to go the right way today and i loved it. i hope that this feeling that i have wanted for so long will last awhile. i really doubt it but i can hope...cant i ( Read more... )