its time to start doing what i want to do, and to stop allowing myself to be stagnant and unproductive. i know what makes me happy. i know what im good at. and its not all the bullshit that i fill my day to day life with ( Read more... )

there must have been almost a months worth of dishes in the sink. washing them took me 2 hours. but that motivated me to do more. i cleaned my house from top to bottom. swept, mopped, went through clothes and threw shit out. i feel good and accomplished. waking up and having to sit in a messy house everyday is depressing. all that trash weighs you ( Read more... )

ever puked while riding your bike? i did that today, on the way to work, all over the street.
bart stopped underground for like 20 minutes, was late to work and im the only one with a key to open the restaurant. was sick at work. made me anger. came home to an empty lonely house and now im sad. life is kinda bad right now

so im realizing that its okay to be alone, because at least i'll always have myself. right?

okay, maybe i was feeling a little sorry for myself. thanks for the support, friends.
svet...i saw that you called last night, i was working. im off tomorrow if you wanna hang (im making pickles) call me everyone.

okay so its been 6 months since ive even looked at this thing. i was just going back and re-reading old entries, and realizing how much has changed, and how stupid i was than and how ive probably become even stupid-er. i dont remember writing any of that. reading it feels like reading a strangers diary, a stranger i dont relate to or understand, ( Read more... )

so why not live here ( Read more... )

i want to scream so loud and bang my head against the wall and run around outside and pull my hair out and set things on fire

i was just really thinking about how little i know about everything, but how much i know about absolutely nothing ( Read more... )

so my suitcase got stolen with all my clothes in it and it sucks.
i lost my house keys and that sucks too.

but i just got a new awesome cooking at a beautiful restaurant in the city and i absolutely love it.
that is all.

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