I really don't. I think theres something wrong with me mentally, and I need to see some kind of psychatrist. I'm not stable in anyway. I don't think I'm stable enough to be in the kind of relationship I am right now. Thats not to say I don't love Drew... I do. He's one of the best things thats happened to me, I think. But... but I know he's not ( Read more... )

I don't think about it often. But sometimes, I can't help it. And during those brief periods... I just want to do something unspeakable. To hurt him so bad. Not physically. emotionally. Something so he'd never forget the pain he caused.

Don't know where this came from.

Mariah Carey - Shake it off
Shakira - Objection (Tango)
Anastasia - One Day In Your Life
Christina Aguilera - Fighter
Kimberly Locke - Wrong
Madonna - The Power of Goodbye
Pat Benatar - Fire and Ice
Pink - You Make Me Sick
Thalia - You Knoew He Never Loved You
Vannessa Carlton - White Houses

Yeah.

So I'm finally back at school, today is the first day of classes. I just had my first class, an hour break, and then class again. Thats how my whole schedule is for today. Personally I hate it, I like to have all my classes backtobacktoback, for convenince. Its like high school all over again, and then I'm done for the day. But nope, I hate this ( Read more... )

I basically just woke up, and I had this really weird, depressing dream last night, I wanna write it down before I forget it ( Read more... )

I crave attention, and when I don't get any, I get depressed.

I heard a radio ad today, they're hiring hooters girls for a nearby restaurant they're opening. The ad said come "dressed to impress" so I sent out a mass text message, asking people if that meant, in regards to a hooters interview, come dressed like a slut, and I got my favorite response from Katrina. She wrote ( Read more... )

Ok, wow. Up and down, rollar coaster issues I have. So since my last entry... the one who inspired me to write as I did in that entry... yeah, me and him are together now. Um. Crazy, I know. Honestly, I'm a little nervous about this relationship... I'm unsure how far it'll go. Don't get me wrong, I like him. It was just like a 180 degrees turn... ( Read more... )

It was exactly as I expected, So I'm not too surprised. I just feel like a complete ass for making such a huge fool of myself. It's like this one line from a song by Poe, "Wild", it goes "So this is what it's living in limbo, first I'm high then I'm solo ( Read more... )

So it was quite interesting, after we, we being Sharonda and me, left Drew's house tonite. I had left my car at Sharonda's house, so we were driving there, and I didn't feel like going home, neither did she, so we just decided to take a walk around her neighborhood, ended up walking up to the drivethru at Dunkin Donuts and ordering 25 munchkins, I ( Read more... )