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Coming out of the darkness
I have to say I am very thankful for my group of friends who have jumped in in my time of need. My depression has been getting worse and I haven't noticed so they banded together to get me the help I need. I have changed my medicine and I am going to actually dig deep into what is causing the depression with my therapist. So I know I have said ( Read more... ) -
Shopping
As I sit in a store and watch people try on clothes I am left to ponder my life. Therapy today gave me a lot to think about. I know I should be happy that I have people who love me but I also went to the local community college today and asked how I would start the financial aid process for going back to school in the fall so I guess I am just ( Read more... ) -
Valentines Day
So today is Valentine's Day and though I am posting this while alone in my bedroom I am actually happy. I spent the day with Carla and Kim and the girls. And then I exchanged chocolates with Derek. (He agreed to be my Valentine this year) I don't know if it was begrudgingly or not but it made me happy. I know today is all about commercial love but ( Read more... ) -
The Novels
As many of you know I am in the process of writing two novels. One that is a love triangle told from the guys point of view and the second one is my life story. I am still very interested in writing both of these novels it's just that I have major writers block. On the novel "my firecracker and icequeen" ( the love story) I will admit that it was ( Read more... ) -
New iPad
This is my first post from my brand new iPad. I am so in love with it but it is taking some getting used too. It is so nice and shiny!!!!
I had a revelation tonight while talking to Derek; I am finally getting a clearer picture of what is going on inside my own head and I think I am finally able to explain to someone else what is going on inside my ( Read more... ) -
All kinds of love.
I have been realizing lately all the different forms love can take. I am laying here in Abby's bed cause of the love I have for her and Carla and Arissa. I missed them dearly during my quarantine period. But being here and loving them doesn't diminish my love for my friends or my family. And I love each and every person in my life differently. ( Read more... ) -
Sickness continues.
It is almost midnight and I am laying in my huge bed with my foot propped up on ice cause it wasn't in its cast all day. I went to the doctor earlier today cause my cold was getting worse not better I haven't been able to go to work because of it. And low and behold I have bronchitis so I am bedridden and quarantined until further notice. I may or ( Read more... ) -
I'm sick...
I lay here in bed sick with a head cold and though I am highly contagious all I want to do is be with my friends. I have been talking via text messaging but it's not the same as sitting down on a couch and laughing cause of something silly that the animal has done. Or watching the concert of one of my nyès. Through therapy and self reflection I ( Read more... ) -
Love encircles me
Today was a perfect day. I am not meaning perfect in the way that there was no bumps or hiccups. But perfect in the way I am perfectly happy with what transpired. It all started out with waking up late in the afternoon. Then Derek and I went out to Waterford Lakes to swap out the printer I just bought last night and it turned into going into a ( Read more... ) -
Away from home
This is my 3rd night away from home and I am getting really home sick. I love spending the night at Carla's but no matter how lovely and inviting her home is; it is not my home. I miss my bed, my TV, my (Derek's) dog, and most of all I miss my roommates. We may have our ups and our down but I love them both. I will endure the pain of driving (I ( Read more... )