i've begun to discover that time is my worst enemy.

some people complain about having too little time - too few hours in a day to get done what they want; too few days in a week to get obligations finished. me, i'm the opposite. i have too much time on my hands - it's not so much that i'm not busy as i quite simply don't want to be burdened with ( Read more... )

so i've come to the conclusion that
indeed,
there is no hope for me.

one of these days,
this will be too much for me to bear.

and although i know no one is reading this anyway,
i apologize to all the people who ever will,
the people who know me,
& the people who i wish cared enough to read this ( Read more... )

so i'm really starting to question whether things will ever get better.

fact is, i'm exhausted. completely and utterly exhausted.

it's not an "i need more sleep" thing.. i'm just so done, you know? living just takes so much out of me. i spend every day living obscured beneath the facade of continuous happiness - or at the very least, contentment ( Read more... )

i don't really have much to say.

well, that's not true.. i guess i just can't type it.

why is it that the people who supposedly want to "help" you only make you feel worse?

happy mother's day, family.

i hope it was fucking worth it to make me want to die more than ever. :)

Why is it that no matter what I do, people automatically take a bad opinion of me?

Everyone at Lucas is getting angry with me because I don't talk to them anymore.. I don't show up in between clases or during lunch to talk to them.

Sorry, but what fucking reason do I have to talk to any of you?They have all treated me like absolute SHIT for ( Read more... )

i don't really know what to say anymore. honestly, i don't. what can i say that hasn't already been said? what can i do that hasn't already been done? what can i try that i haven't already tried a countless number of times before ( Read more... )

i am stupid i am ugly i am annoying i am weird i am awkward i am awful i am repulsive i am horrible i am disgusting i am retarded i am gross i am hideous i am unattractive i am a freak i am useless i am fat i am an idiot i am flawed i am worthless i am nothing
i should be hurt i should hurt myself i should be cut i should cut myself i should be ( Read more... )

there's nothing left for me here.

and i mean nothing.

i'm just wondering how many times people have to hurt me for it to finally be enough.

i'm done, i'm so done.

can i just die now? i don't want to wake up.

"there is nothing more for me; need the end to set me free."

edit: and now i found out that one of the most important people in my ( Read more... )

Another day, another disheartening 'emo' feeling ruining that aforementioned day ( Read more... )

Well, first post in a long while ( Read more... )