How do you know if you've done someone wrong if they won't talk to you? I hate feeling like this but if someone doesn't come forth, then I guess I'll just have to wait.

Yes, I know, it's been a long time. But I will try to keep up with this journal. Lots of memories on here. I guess it's all I have since my paper journal got thrown into the Mississippi River ( Read more... )

So in about 7 weeks I'll be delivering baby #2. I'm very nervous about this one. Probably because I know I'm having a c-section and probably because I don't feel prepared. I hate that feeling. I want to feel in control, but it seems like I'm not in control of anything in my life anymore. Maybe control is just a selfish thing. Or maybe I'm ( Read more... )

don't know where this came from ( Read more... )

God, how crazy that the bridge on 35W fell yesterday. So weird being that I am connected to it. It's like you watch the news but it doesn't really sink in because things happen all over the world, but then if something happens where you live or where you've been, then it's all real. Anyhow, maybe that's just the start to what could be worse ( Read more... )

I'm at work. It's pointless to be here. I don't want to be here, but then again, I don't want to be anywhere. I don't want to exist. I wish I could just be the dust of someone who used to be. Does that mean I want out?

God, I don't even know what possesses me to be so angry about this. It's just a stupid wagon for Amelia, right? I shouldn't be mad that my friend offered me her used wagon and then retracted that and gave it to my sister-in-law, right? Right? Why aren't you answering? Oh yeah, that's right, diaries can't talk ( Read more... )

Straight to Target in the morning for me! Gotta get my Tori poster! Yippee!!!!!

Love Miracle and My Posse Can Do - super cool tracks!

What a roller coaster. Sitter says she can't watch Amelia anymore, so we take her out, she's devastated - she's only 18 months, but an 18 month old can get pretty upset, let me tell ya! So we bring her to another daycare - on the way out of taking the tour, fuck me, they have a picture of Bush in one window and a picture of Jesus in the other ( Read more... )

I have a bad taste in my mouth ( Read more... )